Hi folks,
I recently visited a trans-friendly endo in my area to ask some questions about taking T as well as some other issues I have (I'm borderline hypothyroid). We talked it over, discussed methods, side effects, and the reasons that I'm interested in T. He explained that he follows an informed consent model and practically offered me a prescription. I remember not even thinking and just saying "yes!". I was in a daze, I couldn't believe that I had a script literally in my hands after the appointment. Thing is, I haven't been talking to my partner about this process as much as I wanted to. I'm certain that I want to take T, but I guess I'm nervous that I haven't been talking about it with my partner. I also feel guilty about already having a prescription getting filled (which I'm picking up tomorrow) and I haven't even shared this with them.
I realized that I'm afraid of what they might think. I'm out to my partner, they know I want top surgery, they know I'm not a typical ftm-story (I'm gender queer)...but for some reason, I'm just afraid that taking T will hurt my partner somehow. My reaction to this feeling was to avoid talking about it and now I feel anxious about bringing it up in conversation. I know the only remedy is to just tell them and talk to them about it, but I'm just having trouble gathering the courage. Any advice on bringing it up?
Thanks so much!
