Well, it has been a pretty eventful few days. A week ago I came out online to you girls and guys. On Wednesday I told my psychiatrist and today I had my first appointment at the Sexology department that will be responsible for my transition.
My psychiatrist was supportive and, I think, I little excited to finally learn what is behind all my anxiety. She told me that she thought that I was probably dealing with GID, but that they are not supposed to ask outright. And since till now I have been deeply guarded about how others see me in this respect, there was little she could do. She sent me up the chain here, but wants to help me in any way she can. (These visits are covered by our state insurance, fortunately!)
The visit to the Sexology Dept. was odd, at least for me being new to all this. Seemed a little like a cross between a very detailed physical and a recounting of my history. The whole thing took about 2 hours. Lots of questions about my childhood (what toys I played with, how I related to the boys in my classes), what I would do after SRS, my family life, etc... All pretty normal stuff, I suppose. Then there was a physical exam, which I totally didn't anticipate – they even measured by testicles and penis. At least the doctor was very friendly. He kept calling me Ms. which, I must say, felt amazing! Anyway, all of this info is to be sent on to another doctor/therapist who will ultimately work with me on my transition.
I am to call next week to find out what the next steps are going to be. It seems like I will need to do some kind of written test. Is this normal practice? If so, what kinds of questions will I need to answer? I am horrible at tests – I get too nervous. Also, I am totally afraid that I will fail and won't get approved to start HRT. That would be crushing!
In any respect, it is really good to have finally started this.
Take care,
Mary
