issues, confused

[sydneynorrow]

ive been here before
forgot my password
its been awhile and a lot has happened

so many things
is it natural to identify yourself as a female
born in a males body
and wanting to live as female 24/7
while finding it sexually attractive to crossdress
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Add Google video to your posts!and dominated.. not as a sissy..
but as a girl, dominated...
and findin it sexually attractive to wear female
clothing in wh ich i feel at peace and at home
and right wearing?

i dont know what i am
i do, but i dont know a label

i never chose to feel this way

i am of schoolh livin wit parents
i dont mean to creep you out or any such
ive told friends and family about the
gender thing
but the sexual thing im haaving issues with

ive crossdressed partly in school
im not good with makeup but i absolutely love
makeup
im just alittle bit shy
feeling alone just pulls me out

i want to come back from summer
totally as  sydney to school

issues: bathrooms, P.E.
reactions of people

i dont have much money
i use to be in adavanced classes
now im makin straight Fs
im very depressed

i dont even want to get a drivers permit
my parents want me to eget a job

im bad around and nervous around people
im clumbsy, im scaered, afraid to talk

i want to be independant so i can experiment
with my sexual feelings and expressing mys[elf
comfortably

i make music. ive been lead singer of some bands
but we never really did much

ive made music alone with piano and electronic stuff
and have sang my own stuff..
you couldnt tell from how im typing but im a wonderful writer
english teachers always try to enter me in contest with
essays i write and stuff

thoug i never turn in work so im alwasy makin bad grades
it started out as fear of showing nhow i felt
but not anymore, its lzazy

my mouse is spazzin and clicken on its own
and letters on my keyboard are missin

anyway help me please

[RebeccaFog]

Hi Sydney,

   Welcome to Susan's.

    You have a lot happening with you at once and it probably will take some time to work it out.  Whatever you do, try to remember that you are young and you have a lot of time to work this out.  You can't do everything in one day.
    You sound like you have some great things going for you. Try putting more effort into your school work. It probably doesn't seem to matter to you right now, however, it will give you a way to focus your energy.  You should take advantage of this time in your life to prepare yourself for the changes that are coming your way.  When you graduate from school, you will need some of the skills that you are not paying attention to at this time. Living with our parents is something that some of us can only dream of. 

    I was depressed the way you are now. It is something that you should put some effort into overcoming. Try to see a therapist if possible. There is nothing wrong with your sexual feelings, so I'm suggesting the therapist so that you can learn the skills to avoid future depressions.


Peace,

Rebecca

[sydneynorrow]

thank you... im always a bit worried.

[RebeccaFog]

same as everyone else

[sydneynorrow]

yea but im totally sexy

[RebeccaFog]

Even your toenails?

[sydneynorrow]

mmm indeed.... lol. i love  you silly