Hello all.
I have recently made a post in the other thread(Could I pass one day) and missed to introduce myself
. I am 28 year old and unfortanately a male. I am married. I work in electrical engineering company as embedded computer systems developer. I am from Czech republic, so I appologize for my poor english.
I don't exatly know what type of transgender I am. When I was young, I think from 13, I started as a crossdresser. I stayed on that line for many years. I thought that I am transvestite because it was eroticaly exciting for me. However during a few last years and especially this year something has changed a little. I started an urge to look like a woman, even if I am not dressed as one and in masculine clothing. It is difficult to describe, but I want others to see me as a female(or maybe adrogyne) and I hate my male characteristics more and more
. Clothes are less important for me than feeling womanly and be accepted as one.
So I have grown up long hair and was on 3 laser hair removals since last year so far.
I love when someone says that I have some feminine features. For exaple one of work colleagues said that I should cut my hair, and he was having fun that I look like a girl - he mean it in bad, but funny thing is that this is the best compliment I could obtain
.
I am far from being passable right now, but I really want to visit doc and start HRT.
I live in a conservative enviroment so I am keeping my feelings hidden from other people. Noone knows about my troubles so far.
I found
susans.org last week and it is very inspiring for me and I hope that I can find a lot of answers and inspiration here.
Sarah
