Hi everyone so okay I finally came out to my mom. I was like "Mom I need you to brace yourself for what I am about to tell you" and as soon as I said it she was like "Go ahead I'm braced". Well I told her and you know what she said? She said she already knew. She said she had repeatedly thought to ask me but lost her nerve everytime. She said there were a lot of little indicators, but she wasn't sure, and then today I did something and she noticed me popping out of my shirt :\ she said she was going to ask after that cuz she was almost positive.
She told me even though she doesn't understand everything she will support me and help me get to a doctor so I can stop doing DIY. She said she understands why I feel like I have to do this and just wants me to be healthy when I do and will find me a therapist and an endo ASAP. She also told my dad and she said he actually said "Ok, whatever" and just said to make sure I know he can't afford to help with the surgery XD Grr that is SO my dad, lolz.
All in all I am very pleased with their response. It really wasn't awkward at all surprisingly. It just was!
I am surprised how little I am feeling right now. One thing is relief, but I am not super happy or sad. I guess it's cuz it's what I expected and I know there's still a LOT of work to be done. But it's nice to know no matter what I have their support and a place to stay.
