We probably have more similarities. And I wanted to make the point clear because I know how it feels when you are going through difficulties with those that you love. You feel all alone with it all. I know I've felt that way lately. So yeah... You aren't alone.
As for a name, you can find out info on names at baby name sites. I guess it is fitting, because this is in a way a rebirth for us both, no? I found the name that I used by taking my "real name," finding the meaning of it, and then I looked for a unisex version of it. I mean, I really like the meaning of my name, so I may stick with Shae. It is short and sweet. Unique yet simple. I don't know. Fortunately I have some time. Lol. Maybe I should let my mom pick it? I mean, she is supportive and she would have named me anyways. Who knows? I'll explore that.
But yeah... You should tell friends that you trust. It will make you feel better. They may just surprise you. I know I was surprised when the friends and family that I told accepted me immediately. I thought they were going to reject me. Yet they didn't and I felt truly loved. It was also nice to just be myself around my friends. And remember, you aren't being public if you tell your friends. They'll keep it to themselves if they are really your friends. It is an opportunity to see who is a true friend and who isn't. This is where unconditional love comes into play. A true friend loves you for who you are, not what you are. So yeah... Some may reject you, and it will hurt, yes, but at the same time, it kinda shouldn't, because then you will see that they never really truly cared about you. It is kinda the same with my father at the moment. He isn't thinking about me and how what he says makes me feel, rather he is only thinking about himself. But if they really loved us, I have faith that the ones who rejected us may eventually come through. It is worth the risk. Trust me.
The hormones? Yes... It is quite exciting and also very terrifying. Sometimes I wonder what I am thinking. Like... What is it going to do to me? How am I going to look? What if I end up looking weird or something? What if it is the opposite and I become too attractive, which in turn makes me a target? And there is a possibility that I will become completely public, even openly transitioning in public, with everyone watching. Long story. Well... Not really. I'll go into it on another post. So yeah, I am scared, yet here I find myself possibly starting in two weeks to a month. And yeah, you are right about the injections being more effective. They also are safer, too. As to your needle phobia... If you have your doctor give you the injections, if I remember correctly, they give it in the rear, so you won't see the needle, lol.
The job? Yeah... I guess it is what it is. Tech consulting is great, but at the same time I have been working on other projects, too. I hope they will work out, too. And programming you say? I've been wanting to learn that. Kinda sad that a tech consultant doesn't know how to program. And now for you... Have you ever considered programming for games? It would be an interesting alternative to just standard programming. I'll talk to you more about that. Who knows? Maybe we can work together? ^o^
If you do want to be friends... Please add me to Skype. My name is Sanceria.Flores on there. It is much easier to talk there than on here. Lol. Hopefully I will speak with you soon. :-)
