I am convinced that I'm Trans (I'm not sure if Transsexual or Gender, i don't know the difference? It confuzzles me)
From a young age I've always been "Different" or "Special". i always liked things such as Dress up, and otherwise more feminine activities and shut out the more Masculine ones. (Ex. trade in Gymnastics for football **Shivers** Football...)
So far nobody knows that I'm trans, but i plan on "Coming Out" soon.
My Story
My Past was always Different than most boys. As a young kid (Preschool / Kindergarten) I always fit in with the girls more. This kept going until the end of Kindergarten / beginning of the first grade when the boys realized that they could get to me by teasing (more like bullying) me, saying that im a girl, which didn't bother me too much, except that the girls around my began to get some on the heat, so then i just submitted and stopped talking to them, went along with the "Cudies" thing (Sorry if i spelled that wrong, its a made up word in the first place), although i knew it wasn't true. I never really fit in with the boys, mostly i just walked around with them at recess, and read books instead of joining in on their "fun" of teasing others. I "Laughed" at their jokes, i think in the 3rd grade i laughed about 4 times for real (through the entire year), the other times where just so that I wouldn't get picked on.
In Middle School, i always got singled out for never talking about girls, and how they have a nice ass, and who i want to do. I always just said "Not until High school" But now that's coming up and i know that that excuse is not gonna work.
Lately once puberty started, I've been feeling depressed, and i didn't know the reason why. eventually i figured out that it was this parasite in between my legs that seemed to be the source of depression. Cooking, Horse Back Riding (HBR), Swimming, nothing ever interested me, until i found out about the Trans community. It just seemed like magic, Why I had always been picked on, shunned, and never had that many friends. It all came together. But now im faced with my most difficult task yet: Coming out to my Mom (who i live with, divorced parents) without getting laughed out of the house by my brothers & Sisters (Big family, I'm the middle child of 2 younger sisters & 2 older brothers).
Another problem seems to have come up, and that is my Neighbor thinks that i like his daughter, because i go over to their house to talk with their cousin when hes over from time to time. I cant exactly say (without being a cad) "No I don't 'like like' you", because they are the closest friends i have.And that is my story.
(I've posted before, i just didn't see this particular part of the forum until now)
-Eddie
