hi all from Sydney

[Emmaline]

Hi all,  I am Em
I am based in Sydney australia.
Amazingly, I survived to 36 with severe life long depression with no idea of the cause and finally cracked the puzzle last month.   Denial is a poor term... more like total mind block.  It was gender dysphoria and pretty darn text book at that once I discovered the concept.
I will be starting hrt shortly cannot wait to see the real me.  I get the impression she just plain rocks.  My depression has all but lifted just knowing I can transition.  Yay.
I am out to my close friends and parents, but still in guy mode for now.  Grrr.
I am a professional artist, a bit of a film geekette, married to an amazing woman who not only accepts me, but loves the real me more (what?  I get you AND boobs... bonus!).  Erm... what else can I say about me?  Dark sense of humor, party girl, social butterfly, looooove burlesque and cheesecake, rockabilly, trance and bubble tea.
I identify as femme lesbian, and am proud to have jumped from none to two letters in lgbt(etc) in one swoop.  It certainly explained why all my close friends (and exes) where lesbian, pan and bi girls.  Lol. Denial is a funny thing.  I will wear my colors proudly.

I look forward to chatting (and no doubt over sharing) with  everyone!

[kelly_aus]

Hi Em,

A warm welcome to you! I'm from Adelaide, I'm one of the many Aussie girls around the place.. We have somewhat of a reputation..

Hugs,
Kelly

[Emmaline]

Hi ya back!  Lots of Aussies is good news.  Maybe its something carlton breweries put in the beer.

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[kelly_aus]

Hi ya back!  Lots of Aussies is good news.  Maybe its something carlton breweries put in the beer.

There's so many of us here in Adelaide, I've started wondering if there's something in the water.. We don't drink that beer from the east over here - we have Coopers.

[Jamie D]

A very warm southern California welcome to you, Em.

[Cindy]

Hi Emmaline,

Greetings from another Adelaide girl. A rather cold and wet one at the moment!!

Hugs

Cindy

[stavraki]

Hi all,  I am Em
I am based in Sydney australia.
Amazingly, I survived to 36 with severe life long depression with no idea of the cause and finally cracked the puzzle last month.   Denial is a poor term... more like total mind block.  It was gender dysphoria and pretty darn text book at that once I discovered the concept.
I will be starting hrt shortly cannot wait to see the real me.  I get the impression she just plain rocks.  My depression has all but lifted just knowing I can transition.  Yay.
I am out to my close friends and parents, but still in guy mode for now.  Grrr.
I am a professional artist, a bit of a film geekette, married to an amazing woman who not only accepts me, but loves the real me more (what?  I get you AND boobs... bonus!).  Erm... what else can I say about me?  Dark sense of humor, party girl, social butterfly, looooove burlesque and cheesecake, rockabilly, trance and bubble tea.
I identify as femme lesbian, and am proud to have jumped from none to two letters in lgbt(etc) in one swoop.  It certainly explained why all my close friends (and exes) where lesbian, pan and bi girls.  Lol. Denial is a funny thing.  I will wear my colors proudly.

I look forward to chatting (and no doubt over sharing) with  everyone!

Hey there Em!  Welcome fellow traveller from Oz.

Amazing journey.  Love your spirit.  Strong!  Hope the solved puzzle inspires you, ever forwards.

Kind Regards
stav

[Jenny07]

Hello there Em

I big hello from err Sydney as well...

You will need to watch those girls in Adelaide. Definitely something in the water over there.

I am happy for you in that you have found yourself after all this time.
You are not alone so enjoy the ride and welcome to Susan's.

Cindy will be along soon to brand me so might as well make it two for one special.

Enjoy.

Jen

[Cindy]

Hello there Em

I big hello from err Sydney as well...

You will need to watch those girls in Adelaide. Definitely something in the water over there.

I am happy for you in that you have found yourself after all this time.
You are not alone so enjoy the ride and welcome to Susan's.

Cindy will be along soon to brand me so might as well make it two for one special.

Enjoy.

Jen

No more brands for you, you enjoy them too much.

Lashings and chocolate deprivation in the future.

Heee Heee

[Emmaline]

Thanks all for warm welcome!

[Jamie D]

Chocolate deprivation?!?  That's just cruel.

[Devlyn]

Hi Em, welcome to Susan's Place! Since there's so many Aussies here, I'll call for the paddy wagon shuttle bus to take you all back to the penal colony home. See you around the site, hugs, Devlyn

[Emmaline]

Oh yeah- I am allergic to chocolate too.   THATS CRUEL.

Somebody go eat some on my behalf.  Go on... you want to....

So I am feeling welcome, thats a nice experience after worrying about being welcome in society in general for the last couple of weeks.  Thanks all.

My current goal is to transition fully, including srs and ffs.  My disphoria is strongest in physical terms- and as an artist I think visually, I suspect.  It would be nice to look in a mirror without feeling ill and full of unfounded loathing.  Whats exciting is that, now am aware of the cause of this reaction I can bear my image  by visualising the subtle feminization.  Not that I will be a looker... mind you, that would be nice, I would be delighted with just being able to connect and care for the person in the mirror.  Being haaaaawt would be nice, of course, but its not going to drive me to a slew of procedures.  I will be happy as a natural looking bombshell.

Already I feel a totally new person, its like unfolding.  Really nice that I can move and express myself to my wife and close friends without having to play male any more.  A friend said I stand and sit totally differently now, far more relaxed and upright.  I wondered if this was me affecting a female posture, but its the opposite- this posture is quite natural.  My normal voice is also lighter and higher as I realise I was forcing the sound deeper into my chest to man up.   Its weird... but wonderful.  Climbing out of denial, being more truthful in every action... lifting out of depression.  I love spotting my automatic male facade kicking in, dropping it and seeing what comes out.  Unrefined, but natural.

Having trouble finding a name.  Emmaline is the character from a novel I wrote a few years back (unfinished).
Running list...

Emmaline (emmi for short)
Dana (was Dave- so people can go Da....na, if they slip.)
Dannika
Lillian (from gish... lil and lilly are nice nicknames)
Alice (not keen on being called Al though)  little psychic vampires ftw- always  was team alice
Leisha (love Leisha Hailey  and speaking on alices)
Ella
Ellie
Kiera
Slartybardfast
Pippa

[stavraki]

Oh yeah- I am allergic to chocolate too.   THATS CRUEL.

Somebody go eat some on my behalf.  Go on... you want to....

So I am feeling welcome, thats a nice experience after worrying about being welcome in society in general for the last couple of weeks.  Thanks all.

My current goal is to transition fully, including srs and ffs.  My disphoria is strongest in physical terms- and as an artist I think visually, I suspect.  It would be nice to look in a mirror without feeling ill and full of unfounded loathing.  Whats exciting is that, now am aware of the cause of this reaction I can bear my image  by visualising the subtle feminization.  Not that I will be a looker... mind you, that would be nice, I would be delighted with just being able to connect and care for the person in the mirror.  Being haaaaawt would be nice, of course, but its not going to drive me to a slew of procedures.  I will be happy as a natural looking bombshell.

Already I feel a totally new person, its like unfolding.  Really nice that I can move and express myself to my wife and close friends without having to play male any more.  A friend said I stand and sit totally differently now, far more relaxed and upright.  I wondered if this was me affecting a female posture, but its the opposite- this posture is quite natural.  My normal voice is also lighter and higher as I realise I was forcing the sound deeper into my chest to man up.   Its weird... but wonderful.  Climbing out of denial, being more truthful in every action... lifting out of depression.  I love spotting my automatic male facade kicking in, dropping it and seeing what comes out.  Unrefined, but natural.

Having trouble finding a name.  Emmaline is the character from a novel I wrote a few years back (unfinished).
Running list...

Emmaline (emmi for short)
Dana (was Dave- so people can go Da....na, if they slip.)
Dannika
Lillian (from gish... lil and lilly are nice nicknames)
Alice (not keen on being called Al though)  little psychic vampires ftw- always  was team alice
Leisha (love Leisha Hailey  and speaking on alices)
Ella
Ellie
Kiera
Slartybardfast
Pippa

Thanx for sharing a bit about your story - I've never known dysphoria - but I've known admiration for and envy of women I'd love to be.  Not Maggie Thatcher.  Natasha Stott Despoja.  Would have loved her as PM--Cerebral--  Laurie Anderson, Lindsay Wagner--the bionic woman, Patsy Bisco...

ha ha ha -- Slartybardfast!  I know one but I won't post it - too riske - .....

from ur list, I like Ella.  I also love the names Angeline, Angelica, Helen, Samantha, Cassandra and Yvette.

[Emmaline]

Ooh, love cassandra.  Cassy.  Added to list thanks!

Natasha SD - no idea about her politics, because I had a wrong crush on her and whenever she was on the telly I didnt hear a word she said.  Lol.

[stavraki]

Ooh, love cassandra.  Cassy.  Added to list thanks!

Natasha SD - no idea about her politics, because I had a wrong crush on her and whenever she was on the telly I didnt hear a word she said.  Lol.

ha ha ha.....can't have been 'wronger' than a gay guy with a girlcrush on Hugh Remington's wife!  Wrong on so many levels

[Emmaline]

Lol.  My wifes wrong crush is paul keating.




Yeah.




Weird.

[Jenny07]

Is that the wrong crush she had to have?

[stavraki]

ha ha ha!!!  Either of the 'wrong crush' or 'wrong crush she had to have' - better him than John Howard - !!

(for US non Oz-ians - think "Obama" c.f. "Regan")