Dreams

[EdekStaszek]

Hi! I know there are some threads about this, But I thought that its best not to re open a thread made in 2006. anyways. . . .

What kind of dreams do you people have? Or do you not remember you're dreams?

What gender do you usually appear as? You're current, or target gender? (Or, for those who has SRS, You're previous gender?)

Or, Just post what dreams you have here. I feel that writing Typing things helps me sort them out. So, Yeah. Just post you're dreams here...

Okay I'll shut up now.

Thanks for you're time!

First to post gets a cookie <--Never mind. I ate it

[Jamie D]

I do not often remember my dreams, but when I do, they are very weird.  I dream variably that I am male or female.  I have "lucid dreams" (a special type of dream in which you know you are dreaming).

[Joanna Dark]

The only time I had a dream where I had a vag was like 7 years ago. It felt so real though and like a premonition of the future because the dream was in the future. I was still young too. I was wearing jeans and I was so grateful for how they fit. In two years time, it will be a reality. It's the only thing I have ever wanted and I wish I dreamed that way all the time. In my dreams now I am usually transitioning. I've also always dreamt of malls and shopping for as long as I can remember. Wish fulfillment.

[Alaia]

Physical gender in my dreams is fluid. Sometimes I'm male, sometimes female, and sometimes I inexplicably change from one to the other (no transformation, just one moment I'm dreaming a scene where I'm male and in the next part of the dream I'm female). When I'm lucid dreaming I'm usually female.

[EdekStaszek]

Thanks for the input, everybody!

I just realized I didn't input anything when I posted this last night. Stupid me. I'll fix that now.

When I dream
When I remember my dreams, Then I know that I am dreaming, but unlike some, I cannot influence them.
It usually has to do with whats happening with my life. for example, when I am worrying about a test, I dream that I go to school and there's a demon  in my desk, stealing my pens & chomping on my test.
Weird, right?
But when I'm going to sleep, I try to leave my mind blank or else it is impossible for me to fall asleep.
But recently (and by recently I mean in the last year) I've been having dreams where (As Alaia said) I have a "Fluid Gender" or where it's changing from one to the other.
Oh! And how do you "Control" You're dreams? Because I think I am able to do it a bit, but when I try, it's like my unconscious mind is fighting my semi-conscious one, and it results in spinning. It sounds weird, but that's what happens.
Thanks for the input, all! & sorry Jamie, that I ate the cookie I feel bad about that.

[Jamie D]

No problem Eddie.  I'm on a diet!

[Alaia]

Oh! And how do you "Control" You're dreams? Because I think I am able to do it a bit, but when I try, it's like my unconscious mind is fighting my semi-conscious one, and it results in spinning. It sounds weird, but that's what happens.

For me, only once I've realized I'm dreaming can I control it. It's like that knowledge gives me the power of control. However, I do have to walk a tenuous line between taking full control and just guiding the dream. When I take full control and change the dream entirely then I usually find myself waking up shortly after, sometimes very abruptly. But if I guide the dream with small changes and nudges here and there in the direction I want it to go then it lasts much longer.


On a side note, speaking of waking up abruptly from a dream, has anyone done this and suffered from sleep paralysis?

It's happened to me a couple times and scared the hell out of me. The first time this happened I must have been around 12-14 years old. I was having some serious struggles with gender identity at the time and the shame I felt about wanting to be a girl (thanks to my highly religious and conservative upbringing). My internal conflict fueled my dreams that night, as they often have. But that night my dream was unique in that there was a point where I felt like I was being presented with the choice of physically becoming a girl or not. I emphatically chose to be a girl and swiftly woke up. But when I awoke, I couldn't move, I could hardly breathe and it felt like there was a suffocating darkness bearing down on me. I'd never heard of sleep paralysis before, so naturally my mind jumped to the most obvious conclusion that I could rationalize (again thanks to my religious upbringing)--I thought that I was literally being attacked by the devil or an evil spirit. It's no coincidence that some refer to sleep paralysis as having "the devil on your back". That's exactly what it feels like. *shudders*  Anyway, I just lay there, unable to move and praying fervently to God that he'd save me from the ordeal. Eventually the suffocating darkness went away and I slowly regained my motor abilities.

It's unfortunate I was so naive back then. I concluded that the experience was driven by the choice I made in my dream, that because of my choice I'd let the devil have power over me. It's also unfortunate that I didn't feel like I had anyone to turn to or talk to about it either. In the end, the experience just served to re-enforce the belief that wanting to be anything other than my birth sex was morally wrong. I ended up "repenting" for my choice--and I can say that is probably then when I first truly began compartmentalizing my feelings and shutting them out. Years later I discovered that the phenomena was called "sleep paralysis" and happens to all kinds of people. I just shake my head at it now, man what a kick in the pants. That experience probably set me back years on the road to self-acceptance and transition.

[EdekStaszek]

No problem Eddie.  I'm on a diet!

But. . . . It was Oatmeal! Very healthy I actually DID make cookies. And i actually DID eat the last 3 >

For me, only once I've realized I'm dreaming can I control it. It's like that knowledge gives me the power of control. However, I do have to walk a tenuous line between taking full control and just guiding the dream. When I take full control and change the dream entirely then I usually find myself waking up shortly after, sometimes very abruptly. But if I guide the dream with small changes and nudges here and there in the direction I want it to go then it lasts much longer.

Thanks. Its 3am. I know, I know. I'm an idiot. So anyways, I'll be heading to sleep in about... when I post this. lets see if this works (If i happen to dream) and if it works, then I'll post here. I doubt I'll be able to do it straight away anyways.
Night all!
(Don't bother saying "Good Night" By the time I read it it will be in the morning ;P)

[Jamie D]

Oatmeal Raisin is like my fave!!   

[Cindy]

My dreams prior to HT were mainly nightmares and I will not go into them or the reason for them. But they were re-living events.

I occasionally have them return, I've been fighting them for the last week or so.

Post HT my dreams have been vivid and rather easy to interpret, I'm me in them. But I also have no great recollection of being male even in my conscious state anymore. The colours tend to be vivid and the events are recaps of daily occurrence but often in a mixed up manner.

They are pleasant and peaceful and I feel refreshed.

My nightmares invariably result in waking up suddenly and screaming. This is not conducive to the rest of 'he who sometimes shares the bed' so I often end up in a separate room . He suggests it should be padded with a lock on it for some reason

For some time it was suggested to me to write down my dreams so that I could analyse them later. It was fun for awhile but got too much bother.

May I ask why you are interested in dreams?

Cindy

[Naomi]

Basically since my dysphoria kicked up to a point where I've since realized that I need to address it my dreams are very strange, never good, typically male bodied but female identified, and usually pit me against impossible odds in a horror situations. Frankly they suck and are robbing me of sleep.

[Rainacorn]

I find I can rarely ever dream. At best I'll have one or two every 5-6 months, that or I just never remember 99% of them. When I do dream however I seem to always be fighting something; animals, people, ideas, etc.  Strangely enough, I did find myself lucid thinking (I say thinking because I don't remember any images but conscious thoughts) in my sleep last night, in which I was only thinking about transitioning.  These thoughts haven't left my head for days now.

[EdekStaszek]

Oatmeal Raisin is like my fave!!   

Haha, funny story, I once didn't have Raisins, so i cannibalized the "Raisin Bran".

Anyways..

Last night, I had a completely weird dream that I only remember about 20% of. It went something like this...
I'm walking down a hallway when I see someone running behind me, so I start running, then I realized i have a peanut in my hand, and there's a mob of people after my peanut.
I'm not sure of my gender in the dream, only that I was running really hard. When I tried to throw the peanut, It just came back in my pocket.

Yeah, I'm messed up.

[PepperedIssy]

Last night, I had a completely weird dream that I only remember about 20% of. It went something like this...
I'm walking down a hallway when I see someone running behind me, so I start running, then I realized i have a peanut in my hand, and there's a mob of people after my peanut.
I'm not sure of my gender in the dream, only that I was running really hard. When I tried to throw the peanut, It just came back in my pocket.

Yeah, I'm messed up.

  They wanted your nuts!

That is possibly one of the weirdest nightmare I've heard of. Is it even considered a nightmare? People chasing you for your peanut.    I dooo nooot know!~

I don't tend to remember my dreams, but when I do, it's usually weird, or abstract, though in many cases, it's been dealing with thugs. Mean, nasty thugs! And my sex in said dreams, is sometimes male, sometimes female, though when I am female, the most notable difference is I am way shorter than everyone and don't got a lot of chest to be proud of!  Not that I really mind~ I just don't think I've ever dreamed of myself with big bazookas on my chest. But now I am probably going to, and I'll have nightmares about literal bazookas on my chest.

One time I did dream of booby machine guns, like in Austin Powers, I think. Another was giant 15 foot tall uber-muscular manly men chasing me, trying to turn me into a splat mark on the ground, then I was saved by my sister, except I don't have a sister, then my mom was randomly there behind some glass and shaking her head, then I woke up! Okay, that one was really weird. But that's just a snippet into my spazzed out mind, truly crazy stuff happens in my dreams, and I've lived in an upside down world too before! Woo! 

[Tristan]

Hum.... My dreams are normally weird and awkward. Normally I'm always male unless something happens and I'm made to be a female. Idk it's like wonderland and so confusing. In my dreams I tend to do as I'm told so they will be over sooner. See told yea it was weird

[shadowcat]

Dreams, love 'em and hate 'em.  Really depends on the dream.  I have a dangerously creative mind, so sometimes they're pretty epic with amazing, expansive landscapes or cityscapes, weird science fiction plots and developed characters.  Which can be cool or terrifying, depending on what is going on and how many people are dying.  Other times I'm in walmart... and always end up in the video game section.  For some reason.  Can't be related to all the time I spent there as a kid getting neck cramps from the displays.  That would be ridiculous.

I'd have to say I'm probably someone else besides me over 50% of the time, some character in whatever plot my subconscious brain is spewing up at the moment.  A lot of times, the character is male, but not always, and sometimes it flip flops during the dream.  It's hard to tell on that though, as my brain also has a bad habit of POV jumping when I'm dreaming too... Too much writing from 3rd Person Limited Perspective, I guess.

Whenever I'm actually me in a dream, I'm always female... though I'm hoping that may change as I get more used to this (only been a couple months since I even acknowledged I'm trans).   Though, I was lucid dreaming earlier this week and tried to turn myself into a male, but it didn't work, which is pretty normal for my lucid dreams.  My subconscious uses the powers of logic and physics to screw with my lucid dreaming quite regularly, generally to keep me from flying.  Yet, I have somehow managed to convince it I can breathe underwater with some concerted effort both while awake and in successive lucid dreams... so that gives me hope for my in-dream gender identity (if not for flying).

I say I'm always female when I'm myself, but there was one dream where I was both myself and male... when I was like 3 or 4.  I was so embarrassed, I never told anyone, even though I wanted to because I had also been able to fly (because apparently I really just want to fly in dreams)

On a side note, speaking of waking up abruptly from a dream, has anyone done this and suffered from sleep paralysis?

Far more frequently than I'd prefer.  It used to freak me out for much the same reasons as it did you, though I never pinned it on any specific action of myself.  Eventually I realized I had to just relax and go back to sleep and then I'd wake up a few minutes later and be able to move.  Which is a ridiculously hard thing to do when you're utterly freaked out.

[EdekStaszek]

  They wanted your nuts!

That is possibly one of the weirdest nightmare I've heard of. Is it even considered a nightmare? People chasing you for your peanut.    I dooo nooot know!~

I don't tend to remember my dreams, but when I do, it's usually weird, or abstract, though in many cases, it's been dealing with thugs. Mean, nasty thugs! And my sex in said dreams, is sometimes male, sometimes female, though when I am female, the most notable difference is I am way shorter than everyone and don't got a lot of chest to be proud of!  Not that I really mind~ I just don't think I've ever dreamed of myself with big bazookas on my chest. But now I am probably going to, and I'll have nightmares about literal bazookas on my chest.

One time I did dream of booby machine guns, like in Austin Powers, I think. Another was giant 15 foot tall uber-muscular manly men chasing me, trying to turn me into a splat mark on the ground, then I was saved by my sister, except I don't have a sister, then my mom was randomly there behind some glass and shaking her head, then I woke up! Okay, that one was really weird. But that's just a snippet into my spazzed out mind, truly crazy stuff happens in my dreams, and I've lived in an upside down world too before! Woo! 

Come to think of it, I just DID watch Pirates of a the Carrots & Beans. (That was a joke. haha). And thats just a little thing they had in it, where several versions of Jacks' are fighting for a peanut.

Shadowcat: You're mind is PRETTY weird!

[shadowcat]

Shadowcat: You're mind is PRETTY weird!

Yes, yes it is >_>  Sometimes it makes for amazing nightly entertainment, and other times its miserable and I wish I didn't dream at all.  And when I have a more normal dream, I just get mad at my subconscious like I do with boring ads, because apparently I expect to be entertained while dreaming *cough*

[EdekStaszek]

2:30 am. time to dream up some more Peanut related nightmares!
So uhm.. ya.
Ya..
Yeahhhh...
Yeaaa- ZZZZzzzz....

[Cindy]

2:30 am. time to dream up some more Peanut related nightmares!
So uhm.. ya.
Ya..
Yeahhhh...
Yeaaa- ZZZZzzzz....

Sweet dreams Honey!