I'm being a [insert expletive] to my girlfriend. Every time vow to make up for the ->-bleeped-<- she's been with in the past I end up acting like this instead, and I hate it. I don't deserve her, and I hate that she has to listen to me be like this, but she'd disagree if I told her so and tried to leave. Then I feel like I'm excusing myself for thinking that. I just want to be a better person for her, but when I decide to be that person I end up acting the opposite. And I'm crying, which makes me feel so much better about myself. All you women are welcome to E, feel free to come and leech it out of me any time you like. I'll even through the tears in for free.