What made you unhappy today? v3.0

[Lauren5]

No letter. I'm told I have to transfer to a dedicated gender therapist for this and meet with them for likely 3 months at minimum before I get a letter.
Why wasn't I told this at first? Was I not being taken seriously?
At least the resons for sending me elsewhere are justified, no matter how frustrating it is, and I have to agree with them.

[AdamMLP]

I woke up with a sore left side of my throat which made my left jaw ache and click worse than it normally does, my left ear crackle when I swallow, and I think the left gland in my neck isn't too happy either. Now I think it's starting to spread across to the other side. If I wake up worse tomorrow, by the time I'm awake to realise the nurse will have already gone home and I'll have to go to work anyway, or not get paid. For all I know I've got something nasty and contagious (kinda hoping I have so I can move into the one man isolation room for a while...)

[Edge]

I think I have some internalized homophobia and transphobia going on. It's only directed towards me though. I feel considerable shame for being trans and embarrassed and ashamed for being attracted to another male. I know it doesn't make sense, but I still feel shame.

[Megumi]

No letter. I'm told I have to transfer to a dedicated gender therapist for this and meet with them for likely 3 months at minimum before I get a letter.
Why wasn't I told this at first? Was I not being taken seriously?
At least the resons for sending me elsewhere are justified, no matter how frustrating it is, and I have to agree with them.

I know exactly how you feel. It's beginning to seem like my therapist is a hardcore gatekeeper. Every time I make a huge step like coming out to my family, presenting as myself in public, getting RLE, going to support groups, meeting new people and building up a support network and even getting in contact with the endo to figure up costs for everything and build up a financial template showing that HRT is viable for me as it won't greatly impact my finances all I keep getting is well we will have to see how things go until next week with your family or X scenario. It's really beginning to tick me off as I actually feel great about myself and I know the next step in my transition is to begin HRT and yet a gate is in front of me that's called the endo has to have my therapist's letter as he wont do informed consent..... argghh.

[Lauren5]

I know exactly how you feel. It's beginning to seem like my therapist is a hardcore gatekeeper. Every time I make a huge step like coming out to my family, presenting as myself in public, getting RLE, going to support groups, meeting new people and building up a support network and even getting in contact with the endo to figure up costs for everything and build up a financial template showing that HRT is viable for me as it won't greatly impact my finances all I keep getting is well we will have to see how things go until next week with your family or X scenario. It's really beginning to tick me off as I actually feel great about myself and I know the next step in my transition is to begin HRT and yet a gate is in front of me that's called the endo has to have my therapist's letter as he wont do informed consent..... argghh.

I'm in the same situation almost to the dot (except I refuse to go full time before hormones, just go out once and a while) and all I'm told is that "I'm making good progress, and great baby steps, but [I'm] not ready for the big step yet" and I'm sick of it and just want to ignore it all and find an informed consent clinic, even if I have to take the train to Chicago a few times. But that's also the reason I have to slow down and try to fix my emotions first.
I'm sorry you're having trouble, Meg.

[KabitTarah]

Ow dysphoria... ow, ow...

Avoid the Black Friday ads. I want boots, and clothes, and etc., and I just know tomorrow will be the absolute worst time to be shopping for my own wardrobe... (aside from being entirely unnoticed at doing it )

[Edge]

I still feel a lot of shame and freakishness today.

[Adam (birkin)]

I woke up in the most godawful mood.

[Lauren5]

Ow dysphoria... ow, ow...

Avoid the Black Friday ads. I want boots, and clothes, and etc., and I just know tomorrow will be the absolute worst time to be shopping for my own wardrobe... (aside from being entirely unnoticed at doing it )

I planned on doing some Internet shopping for clothes and such, but I still haven't founda way to load the cash I have to make it usable online.

[Devlyn]

I planned on doing some Internet shopping for clothes and such, but I still haven't founda way to load the cash I have to make it usable online.

A prepaid debit card should do it. Hugs, Devlyn

[Lauren5]

A prepaid debit card should do it. Hugs, Devlyn

Thought about it, but those tend to have an activation fee attached. Every dollar is precious right now, especially with a potential financial crisis in the line for me.

[Ms Grace]

Wanna hear more? They denied me the letter. They just gave me a human fecal wasty endo referral where it says that I have been on therapy for a year and I am apt for HRT. I have asked for it and they say they have nothing, and when I need it they will write it... The next time I see a shrink, in January.

So I'm claiming a copy of my medical record with them. Let's see if it is there.

Wow, they're really jerking you around aren't they? I know they seem to do things much less with your needs in mind where you are from, but surely there are better health practitioners there who aren't so hardcore about being unfair. I hadn't realised that you had to do real life without HRT. When my shrink mentioned it once I shot him the dirtiest look and told him no way and he backed down pretty quickly. I had a letter not long after that...he probably realised I'd just go elsewhere.

[Ms Grace]

No letter. I'm told I have to transfer to a dedicated gender therapist for this and meet with them for likely 3 months at minimum before I get a letter.
Why wasn't I told this at first? Was I not being taken seriously?
At least the resons for sending me elsewhere are justified, no matter how frustrating it is, and I have to agree with them.

I'm really sorry to hear that Willow. Very unfair of them not to be more transparent about the process up front. Hugs. You mentioned an informed consent clinic, sounds like a good possibility if you can do it.

[Miss_Bungle1991]

I found out that there will be no Cornish Hens this year.

It sucks but, oh well, we will have turkey (meh) instead, in addition to some lasagna since I have one family member that is ULTRA picky about what they eat. Yes...lasagna on Thanksgiving. 

[KabitTarah]

Thanksgiving, family, snideness.

[Natalia]

Trying to watch a movie with my grandmother and grandfather. They couldn't understand it at all and they were complaining all the time! The movie was actually very good and sometimes I think they can only understand pathetic simple movies made for people without a brain! I ended up arguing with them about it!

[Lauren5]

I'm really sorry to hear that Willow. Very unfair of them not to be more transparent about the process up front. Hugs. You mentioned an informed consent clinic, sounds like a good possibility if you can do it.

It's a 4 hour trip by train each way. But if I have to do it, I will.

[Shaina]

My family thinks I'm a lesbian. And they're not being very nice about it either... 

[Miss_Bungle1991]

My family thinks I'm a lesbian. And they're not being very nice about it either... 

That's not cool.

I think you would make a cute lesbian, though.

[Lauren5]

My family thinks I'm a lesbian. And they're not being very nice about it either... 

Because we had a picture of us together with you dressed as a guy?