So...I was at my session today and the result wasn't so good as I was awaiting. I thought her few pices of my story. I think I started bad from sex problems, because was shy to trigger transsexual theme right in the first second, however after some time we figured things out. However she told me that maybe I am transsexual and that I have two options how to cope it, in first case do complete transition, in second case hide it and learn to live with it. Then ask me what I want to do now, and I wasn't able to tell for sure if I want full transition. I also I told her that we are awaiting a baby with my wife...and that was the moment when she stop be supporting in transition. She told me that I should be now support for my wife and a child and that I did my decision. Than she offered me the visit of Dr Weiss, whois in our country specialist in confirming diagnosis and asked me if I want to visit him. I told her I wish to visit him and be confirmed so i am waiting for appointment in one month.
But I think that having a baby means my therapist is saying stop to me
. I was not enough convincing about my wish to have HRT,I mentioned it slightly but she doesn't seem to be supportive. I am very worried that I won't have any official chance for HRT. Doh...that pains a lot. I know I have a huge responsibility for my family right now, I thought I could do a trial run HRT but maybe it won't be possible.
If the diagnosis from Dr Weiss will be positive I think I should manage another appointment with my therapist but I am not sure about the result.
I am really anxious about my chances now
