Quote from: WileyCoyote on July 21, 2013, 02:00:01 AM
I don't know if I'm not confidently telling them it's time for me to start T because I'm scared they'll never go along with it, or because I'm not male. My absolutely pipe dream is being a male model/actor. In a perfect world, that's what I'd be. Maybe I'm just scared of change. And of my family never accepting me, and the hardships that will bring. I wish this wasn't so hard.
It sounds like a lot of guys are kind of in limbo when they finally start medical transition. There is a fear of change and a fear of losing family over it. I think very few people DON'T have to deal with that. So think about it like this – what if that wasn't a factor at all? Ignore the family stuff for a moment, are you still male then? Would you still jump at the chance to medically transition?
Also, if you start to medically transition, and it changes you in ways that you didn't plan on (balding, etc.), how would you feel then? Would you accept that as the reality of being male, or would that destruction of the perfect body/male model dream be too hard to bear? I still think that's a factor you have to really consider. Very few guys luck out and get to be Balian Buschbaum ... You may be one of them, but you may not too. You have to be cool with that.
