let me start by saying I joined this sight a few days ago and have learned so many new things about myself. I have made a few post here already but haven't really talked about me I have know for the past 30 something years that something was different about me. I experimented several times in childhood and my youth. I got caught once by my dad. Since those early years, and 2 marriages later, these feelings have gotten harder to hide and I posted that I finally told a good friend, and the questioning began all in a supportive way. If I had it to do over again I would have started this transition many years ago. I have been dressing in private for several years now and venturing out occasionally for a quick trip to town. I know the transitioning and coming out is going to be the most difficult part. I have two children in which I have custody of, girl 9 and boy 13. I'm not really sure how to tell them but little girl is picking up on some of the things I am doing now, so I think she will figure it out before I tell her. Also, I have a pretty good job working as a foreman for a small family owned construction company. Not sure how they would act as there are only 400 of us so I know just about all of the them. Another issues is that I live in a very small town of less than 2000 people and the gossip travels quickly. So I'm sure that once one person finds out, I give it a day then the whole town knows. What makes it hard is that I grew up here!! Life in small towns can be so stressing sometimes and at other times they can be so relaxing. At least the big city is only 1 1/2 hours away. I was given a name of a therapist in Houston today so I will be making that first appointment very soon to get things on the proper path, and I am excited for the changes that are about to occur. I will be hoping and praying that everything I talked about earlier falls into place with few problems encountered but I know that there will be some major obstacles to cross but with perseverance I can overcome.
Live for today...never be anxious for tomorrow because tomorrow is promised to no one!!
