I want to breast feed sooo much! I'm thinking of taking hormones for 5 months in order to grow whatever breast tissue i can in that time and stopping abruptly to induce lactation. BUT, i dont want to loose the ability to be a biological mom one day. So, if i only go on for hrt for 5 months, will my sperm come back? Will i go back to ejaculating the way i used to? What about doing hrt for 3 months on, 3off, 3 on, 3off,.... I'm 33yo. What about estrogen only and no T blocker? I'm NOT planning on self-medicating as am way to scared to do that.
For two reasons I dont think I will ever fully transition: (1)never could pass well, (2) complications from surgery. This is sort of my compromise.