I'm scared and confused

[Joe.]

I currently see someone from a mental health team due to my depression and suicidal thoughts. However, I have my last session very soon. I've been referred to a gender clinic and I'm on the waiting list and I now need to get my anti depressants through my GP. I dont feel ok though. I keep hearing voices talking about me, yet I can't make out what they're saying. I'm really paranoid and I've got these bad thoughts. I'm contemplating going to the doctors about it tomorrow, but I'm scared I'll be sectioned. I know I need to go but I'm scared about what they'll say but at the same time I'm petrified ill do something I regret. I'm just really scared and really confused about what to do.

[Jamie D]

You really should talk to your doctor.  You are still symptomatic.  And hopefully, your mental health care will be extended.

You are too nice of a member to lose because of self-harm.

[DriftingCrow]

I'm contemplating going to the doctors about it tomorrow, but I'm scared I'll be sectioned. I know I need to go but I'm scared about what they'll say but at the same time I'm petrified ill do something I regret. I'm just really scared and really confused about what to do.

You've answered it yourself Joey, you need to go to a doctor. If you're petrified you'll do something regrettable that ways more on the scale that just being scared you'll get sectioned. You need to be honest with your doctor about what's going on and what you're afraid of. If it helps, write the doctor a letter to read when you see him/her if you're afraid you'll loose courage to tell him/her everything that's going on.

[Edge]

but I'm scared I'll be sectioned.

You have to be a threat to yourself or others in order to be sectioned. If you want this to get better, you have to deal with it and, right now, that means talking to your doctor.

[stavraki]

I currently see someone from a mental health team due to my depression and suicidal thoughts. However, I have my last session very soon. I've been referred to a gender clinic and I'm on the waiting list and I now need to get my anti depressants through my GP. I dont feel ok though. I keep hearing voices talking about me, yet I can't make out what they're saying. I'm really paranoid and I've got these bad thoughts. I'm contemplating going to the doctors about it tomorrow, but I'm scared I'll be sectioned. I know I need to go but I'm scared about what they'll say but at the same time I'm petrified ill do something I regret. I'm just really scared and really confused about what to do.

Hello Joey, thank you for being so open about ur struggle.  I understand about fear of being sectioned.  The psychiatric system's got so much influence over our lives.

But, if you have bad thoughts, and petrified of doing something you regret, take stock and courage and make a leap of faith to let people support you through this.

Do you have a counsellor you can talk to right now, or someone to lean on and get some kindness and support from?

[spacerace]

Hey Joey - I hope you went to the doctor today.  Let us know how you're doing when you can. You're a thoughtful and caring guy, and I hope you realize that you have a lot to offer the world. You are really about to enter the best part of your life, so keep your head up, and get the help you need to move forward.

[Joe.]

Thanks for your kind words everyone. I couldn't get to the doctors today so I'm going to try and go Monday. I have nobody to talk to. My therapy stops because I'm too old amd classed as an adult now. They can't make it longer and because I'm referred to the gender clinic they think its ok. All my meds go back to my gp. Shes understanding so I will try and talk to her about it.

[stavraki]

Thanks for your kind words everyone. I couldn't get to the doctors today so I'm going to try and go Monday. I have nobody to talk to. My therapy stops because I'm too old amd classed as an adult now. They can't make it longer and because I'm referred to the gender clinic they think its ok. All my meds go back to my gp. Shes understanding so I will try and talk to her about it.

okay -- hang around at Susan's and connect with people...I'm gunna be in and out all day, but will be at the PC working (to save money for phalloplasty.  I'm scrambling the last of the money together, and am on target--just.  I'm heading overseas Monday week).  Happy to have u join my discussions, or post here as u want...

Just eating breakfast.....what time is it your way?

stav

[Joe.]

Thank you. Im glad you're in target. It's just gone 20 to 1 in the mornimg here.

[Ltl89]

Joey, if you need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to contact me.  You will be okay and things will get better.  It's hard to see that when your in a funk- and I know this as I'm currently in my own- but life moves on and improves.  You just have to take the proper steps.  In this case, seeing your Doc on Monday sounds like that will put you on the path to where you need to be.  Keep your head high.  Hugs.

[Joe.]

Thank you

[Rachel]

Joey, I hope you can get some sleep and try to clear your mind. Perhaps making a journal of how you feel and what you want will aid with your visit Monday, with the Doctor. Try to take a few walks and eat some good food. You have a lot to look forward to in your life, which is just starting out. I know you are having a tough time now; but, with the proper help you will feel better soon. Hang in there and keep posting through the weekend and we will be there for you.

[Joe.]

Thanks Cynthia. The journal is a good idea. I will try and write down everything tonight. Im going to try and keep busy.