Sorry that you were in such a dark place at the time. I'm sure that many of here have been there at some point or another. I know that I have. I know the pain of being there right on the edge, but thankfully had lacked the courage to follow thru. Sometimes the darkness just grips you to hard and doesn't allow you to see any other way out. Looking back now on your question, I can see that the two are not really even related. I guess that everyone here, myself at least, is or was looking for answers for themselves. For that I am sorry. I've been in more than my share of therapy, a few types of group, and re-reading your post, I definitely can now see that your 'question' was more about you. I do sincerely hope that you now have the tools to start taking care of yourself as you should and remember to focus on the now.
