How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself

[Lilyyy]

How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself.

Its so inconvenient my body hate and wanting to be a girl. how do i stop the feelings? I need to get good grades at school and my parents r pissed coz there depleting and the main reason is coz i hate my body and want to change it so bad. i think of suicide almost every day and i'm coming closer and closer every hour. my grades have gone down ever since i got the feelings and my mum won't let me wear anything girly! HOW DO I SUPRESS THESE FEELINGS?

[CalmRage]

How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself.

Its so inconvenient my body hate and wanting to be a girl. how do i stop the feelings? I need to get good grades at school and my parents r pissed coz there depleting and the main reason is coz i hate my body and want to change it so bad. i think of suicide almost every day and i'm coming closer and closer every hour. my grades have gone down ever since i got the feelings and my mum won't let me wear anything girly! HOW DO I SUPRESS THESE FEELINGS?

don't supress them. Find an outlet. Supressing them will make things worse.

[Jamie D]

How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself.

Its so inconvenient my body hate and wanting to be a girl. how do i stop the feelings? I need to get good grades at school and my parents r pissed coz there depleting and the main reason is coz i hate my body and want to change it so bad. i think of suicide almost every day and i'm coming closer and closer every hour. my grades have gone down ever since i got the feelings and my mum won't let me wear anything girly! HOW DO I SUPRESS THESE FEELINGS?

Therapy.  You need to talk with a gender therapist.

[SaveMeJeebus]

How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself.

Its so inconvenient my body hate and wanting to be a girl. how do i stop the feelings? I need to get good grades at school and my parents r pissed coz there depleting and the main reason is coz i hate my body and want to change it so bad. i think of suicide almost every day and i'm coming closer and closer every hour. my grades have gone down ever since i got the feelings and my mum won't let me wear anything girly! HOW DO I SUPRESS THESE FEELINGS?

As others have said, bottling things up inside is not the best way to tackle how you feel. I don't know what you think about telling your parents, that could be your first step. You could also look into therapy, although that might be tricky depending on what your situation is. If you have a close friend, then maybe you can confine in them, that way you have someone to talk to. I am sure people here are also willing to listen, and chit-chat with you. I find it slightly helps. I too feel suicidal constantly. Taking your life is not the solution to your problems. Your problems are temporary you can change them if you wish to. I don't know about you, but i also try to remind myself that i want to be happy, and that i want a happy future. It's hard to see it, but i know it's not impossible.

[Riley Skye]

Don't suppress your feelings, it's the worst thing you can do to yourself. Find yourself a gender therapist to talk to and also find an outlet where you can express your feelings. Try finding some androgynous male clothes for the time being to wear out in public, nothing that screams female but is rather feminine, that's how I got through the past couple years before I came out. Don't worry you will get there, you just need to calm down a bit, relax and focus on the task at hand. I know it's tough but Im sure you will be able to do it!

[Athena]

You have a goal. When you finish school you can start working towards transitioning. Think of getting good grades and finishing school as just part of your transition. Use your frustration as motivation don't try to bottle it up let it drive you. Every day is one step closer to your goals.

Also remember with life there is hope.

[suzifrommd]

Is transitioning now out of the question? Are your parents opposed? If so, is there an ally who is knowledgeable about transgender who can speak to them? (A counselor? A doctor?)

Are there LGBT groups at your school? The school where I work has a gay/straight alliance (I'm the advisor). Is there anything like that there?

Lily, please talk to someone. Suicidal thoughts are common among transgender people, but there are ways to deal with them. Do not deal with this alone. Try to find allies where you can.

If all of these suggestions are impossible, make a plan. Draw up a timeline for becoming independent of your parents. Decide how and when you will start your transition. Then take it one day at a time. Pray for courage and acceptance to get through the day. If, like me, you're not sure about God, pray to your inner strength. It works for me.

And we're ALWAYS here if you need us.

[Ltl89]

I would suggest talking to your parents and asking them to allow you to see a gender therapist, assuming you are on the younger side. 

Please realize that nothing is worth taking your life over.  Dysphoria is tough, but it can be overcome.  While you are suffering now, you may have some of the greatest days ahead of you.  There is no reason to rob yourself of something like that. 

[Silvermist]

How to supress my trans feelings so i can get through school & not kill myself.

Its so inconvenient my body hate and wanting to be a girl. how do i stop the feelings? I need to get good grades at school and my parents r pissed coz there depleting and the main reason is coz i hate my body and want to change it so bad. i think of suicide almost every day and i'm coming closer and closer every hour. my grades have gone down ever since i got the feelings and my mum won't let me wear anything girly! HOW DO I SUPRESS THESE FEELINGS?

First of all, PLEASE take a moment to relax. Try to find something to get your mind off it.

I am very sorry; I have been suicidal at many points in my (still young) life, so I know how bad it can be. But this is not something that you can make go away just because you want it to go away.

Think about gay people. Do you think that they want to be gay? Think about how many have put themselves through psychological hell to try to be straight. Think about all of the failed attempts to "get the gay talked out of them," not just by themselves, but also by friends, family, clergy, and therapists. Feelings are impossible to control by force of will, especially strong feelings. If they could be suppressed at will, then nobody would have psychological issues. When you're depressed and considering suicide, the only option is to get professional help, including a suicide hotline.

Don't worry about finding a gender therapist. That step can happen later. But I urge you to talk to a professional therapist or counselor of some kind as soon as possible. Start with your school's counselor. You don't need to tell him or her about your transgender feelings. Just say that you are extremely depressed and suicidal.

I have compiled a fairly comprehensive post to help explain what is at stake in case your parents refuse to allow you to receive the treatment that you require: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/topic,145632.msg1196046.html#msg1196046

You don't have say anything about being trans. But your parents need to know ASAP that you are suicidal.

[Teela Renee]

Do not supress it.  I tried that and started smoking, drinking, and became a heavy pot users.  It wasnt untill my jr year and started presenting as female at school that I came to terms with myself and was happy.  makeup, my long hair, and female cloths really saved my ass.