Hi everyone, I thought I would post and share my story of this weekend leading up to today.
Two weeks ago, I received my 1st appointment for primary healthcare in many many years. as a part of being a new patient, along with being a "special" patient in that I am trans, I had to get some bloodwork done. I was quite honest and frank about my sexual behaviour and lack of routine medical care throughout the years. as a result a lot of STD were tested for and the last business day before my appointment today (last friday) I saw on the patient web portal tool they have that my doctor was changed. I did what I think most would do, and I pasted his name in google and researched him. Turns out that he is an epidemiologist with a focus on HIV care. Well needless to say i spent the entire weekend crying and trying to come to terms that my transitioning might not be possible now, and more importantly, my basic health seemed to be vanishing like a puff a smoke. Perhaps the hardest 3 days I ever had to deal with.
I went in today with my head high and was determined to accept my fate with dignity. He walks in all smiles and is like hey whats up Jamie! and I was like "hi, nice to meet u but can we just go over the results? I did research on you and I know your specialty. Im scared to death and would like the hammer to fall on my head now if thats how it has to be" He said lets go over the results together and pulled up a chair for me by his laptop and waited for me to sit before he did (what a gentleman
) and to my great surprise all tests came back negative. as for cardio health, potassium, lipids, etc.... everything looks great. I was told in many ways I have surprisingly good stats for someone my age (Im 42)
after allowing me a moment to collect myself. I was reeling from relief in a big way. He said lets talk about HRT and after an detailed conversation about side effects, results may vary, etc.... he wrote me a script for spiro and estradiol. after waiting the better part of the year with my letter in hand, it is pretty damn near surreal that I was walking home healthy and with 2 prescriptions that I could hear jiggling in my purse. sounded very much like the most wonderful music I have ever heard. lol
I just took my 1st of each estradiol and spiro and while I still feel traumatized from the stress and fear I put myself through for 3 days, i feel on top of the world. Its my 4th straight day of crying but today it is tears of happiness and pride.
a moment before I began my HRT journey
