When I talked to the doctor, she said the anesthesia would be well gone out of my system now.
I'm just really worried and scared since I can't really do anything to keep my mind off bad thoughts. I keep wondering if this was the right thing to do, since before this, right now I would be able to read, write, draw, and a bunch of other things even if I was down with a fever. But now I feel so helpless and my eyes aren't dilating and contracting right at all.
Just... really...really... scared this isn't going to go away in time for when I have to return to work. It's already scary that I am out for 4 weeks, but I figured I could manage, and I saved up, but if this continues, I won't be able to work at all.
Just typing this is a chore, but I just really wanted some sort of help.
I've been home alone for 4 days, and feel pretty useless, and just super lonesome and really just... I feel like I have no idea what's going on.
Should also state I've had two surgeries before.
One for all my wisdom teeth, which I recovered fast.
And my top-surgery / mastectomy -- I didn't have a light sensitive problem or balance issue, it was just physical healing in the worked on area. Otherwise I spent plenty of my time just reading and trying to relax and not do much...
But...the issue is I CANT do that at all.
My body feels restless when I try to just lay down and my mind is going all over the place. I guess I've been a bit emotional too, since I have felt pretty alone, scared, and helpless.