Aside from any hormones,i suffer from whats called psychotic rage or known as.Due to how sever my anxiety had been,with no
help.It had morphed from fear aka panic attacks to rage attacks and now suffer with the above ^.This means that i can not and will not,live without anti-anxiety meds and most likely for the rest of my life,in order to keep it in check.This was from constantly bottleing up things inside,until they now take over me and release in an explosion of rage *from past pain and scars*.See it as a form of defence,which is exactly what rage attacks are but they can morph even further and become a danger to yourself and others around you.This isnt something you can control,at least i cant
anyway.it happens when my anxiety kicks in.This is one reason *until i get those meds and i hope within the next few weeks* why i dont go outside or around others.I would keep an eye on this and try to find if there are triggers *mine has them as well and i try to avoid them* though i will praise you for your reaction.Not to say that the fight was a good one,but to say that-you are MUCH better off then i am.I cant say what my reaction would have been if it was me,because it would be very cruel and malice and even worse,that i cant explain the words for even,without maybe getting into trouble.I suffer from major social anxiety,agoraphobia and what was stated above.this is VERY hard when also having major trust issues in ALL forms.They tend to come out when around any form of fighting/yelling or put downs or anything negative.I used to hold my feelings in,over how such hurt me or bad things done to me.And now,this is where i am.I cant say i know what the other feels like that you deal with but i can say that,i know what anxiety *in any form* can do.The point is,Dont become like me-let it out but with a state of compassion.Defend yourself but do so with a clear mind.I wish you the best of luck
Never lose yourself for another..
