Hello everyone,
today someone messaged me and asked how it comes that I didn't post an introduction yet.
Because I can't write any personal messages yet, and because my answer to that question will somewhat be an introduction as well, I chose to answer publicly in the introduction section of this place.
I'm here because at the moment I have many questions about my gender identity.
Having been born female, I always wanted to be a boy when I was a child. I liked glitter and hair clasps anyway, but not pink.
I was happy everytime I passed, which happened quite frequently to my favour. Then my body betrayed me and ended up as a woman. Or so. Actually, I don't feel like that term applies to me. But I don't feel like the term man applies to me, either. After all, I habe female body parts (which I sometimes strongly dislike) and have been treated as a (strange) woman since 33 years now.
I spent years trying to become friends with my body and by now sometimes it's quite okay to me.
But deep down inside I feel like I don't know who I really am. I feel stressed every time I have to make a statement about which sex I belong to. This just won't go away. And so I some weeks ago I decided to take some time and give myself the inner space to find out what I am or who I want to be (seen as). How I see myself. I was afraid that this might result in further body-hate, but instead actually I immediately felt more at ease with my body. Strange as it is. And strangly too, since I made that decision I more frequently overheard people guessing at whether I am male or female.
So this must be enough for a first introduction.
As you see I tend to make many words.
I hope it doesn't sound too confused (as confused as I often feel sometimes at the moment). And I hope I'm not completely wrong here. And I hope my English is ok.
Thank you for maintaining this place!
the voyager
