As my tag line says with life there is hope. If you die now you will die as a male in the body you hate. Live and you can grow into the woman you want to be. First step is getting into a position where you can start the process. Cindy will have sent you names of people she trusts to help you, use those names.
If you are a christian then even Jesus faltered and needed help. Now is the time to seek the help to get your feet underneath you, don't wait do it as fast as you can.
