Hello, my name is Joseph. I'm 21 years old, and I think I may be what you may call Androgynous...
A good bit of my life I've been kind of denying my femininity, mostly out of fear and shame. I grew up in a very Christian family, and the way I felt when I was a child seemed to go against everything that I believed in at the time. To say the least, I've been pretty confused and withdrawn for a long time, and maybe in the long run I am not an Androgyne, maybe just a really effeminate male. Either way, I intend to do what I can to find out and be much more open with myself, and I hope I can learn some things from the community.
I seem to be a bit stuck in the middle; not wanting to be a male but not exactly wanting to be a girl. I find that I have qualities of either gender (sometimes I feel like neither!), and the more I let go of my inhibition the more feminine I seem to get. Is there such thing as a partial transition? From the research I've done, I've found very little information on such a thing... Is it unusual to be prescribed anti-androgens alone? I'm basically trying to stop my body from getting too masculine (receding hairline, broad shoulders, etc) and becoming a lot more on the female spectrum. Any kind of advice is greatly appreciated.
I am typically very reclusive, so I apologize ahead of time if I am a little difficult to befriend. My father believes that we are both autistic, so, that may be the case.. I was never officially diagnosed but I do seem to have a lot of aspie traits. Regardless, I am very excited to finally open up and start exploring myself. Thanks for reading
