Oh sweet Teela Renee!
God, I wish I had the magic words... or a magic wand. You know, girl, I'm gonna guess there isn't one single person in here, who doesn't identify at least partly with what you say! I know I do. And the last time I felt like that was not too long ago.
I want to reach for the cliche, "if suicide is the answer, then you are asking the wrong question." That line works just great-- except when you're there!
God, girl, I beg! Please find somebody and reach out. I mean, how about starting here with this family. It's virtual and the hugs lack a lot. But the people I've encountered here in my short time often feel like angels for me. Can any of them reach across the chasm and turn your head away from the empty chasm?
I sure hope so. Please don't waste it-- the troubled and hopeless...but truly precious gift of YOU!
Teela Renee, your name goes on my morning prayer list! Great Spirit, help us to help her!
In tears,
Rickya