Supposed to be Going to Mental Hospital Today.

[Mosnar_K]

I overdosed on Klonopins last night and ended up falling down so the ambulance came and then the hospital released me when they found I just took them to get high. Then when I got home I wrote things all over my body and tried to cut my breasts off. Didn't get that far because it burned really bad when trying to cut them off I'm just going to rant here, and the medicine is still in my system apparently and they make me clumsy and extremely mean. I think it's messed up how people can have to OPTION to transition and I don't have the option at all because my state will RARELY prescribe anyone hormones for anything and it is not likely they'd let me transition even if I did have the money. My mom only makes $600 a month, I have severe mental problems, dropped out of school and can't even get a job at a gas station (I tried) I can't do anything on my own, my mom has to do everything for me and she has no idea what to do in situations such as these. It just pisses me off to the point of suicide because I get so envious of bio men and guys who have already transitioned and I literally hate them and I also hate women too. The only sorts of people I don't hate are MTF's for some reason. It got to the point last night that I was going to cut my insides out with a knife.

[Cindy]

Hi,

I think it is a good idea to be in hospital and get help. I can hear your pain, but there is no way to deal with the gender issues until you deal with the other problems.

I want you to be fit and healthy then we can explore ways of getting help for the gender issues.

Hugs, my love, and my hope you get well soon

Cindy

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Mosnar -

All I can say is make sure and go, and do what the doctors say. Get clean and stable. Once that happens, the other problems can be broken down into solvable pieces.

You're in my thoughts - I sincerely hope your situation improves.

[Jamie D]

Make sure that you are completely honest and open about your transgender feelings with the doctors.

[Devlyn]

Big hug! You have to take better care of yourself, hon. Stay strong, hugs, Devlyn

[DriftingCrow]

Hey man, I hope things work out for you, sometimes going to a mental health hospital or clinic is a good thing that actually helps. I know we hear to many horror stories, but there's also successes as well. Be honest about all your feelings so things can be worked out. Hopefully you'll work through your issues and become a better, stronger person who's able to live independently. 

[Simon]

You should go and take advantage of the help they can offer you. As others have stated, be open and honest about being trans. Keep in your mind that you WILL make it. Our attitudes towards things really do have an effect on the outcome. I wish you the best and hope you'll keep us updated with your progress.

[Mosnar_K]

Thank you everyone I will try to be as open as possible, I might actually have to grow a back bone with talking to these people around here but I'm really hoping things turn out for the best.

[AdamMLP]

I agree with being open.  Trust me, I know it's hard, but it does make a difference, and I wish I'd done it more.  Good luck, and stay safe.

[Cindy]

Thank you everyone I will try to be as open as possible, I might actually have to grow a back bone with talking to these people around here but I'm really hoping things turn out for the best.

My Brother
You have a backbone, you are demonstrating it here by talking to your brothers and sisters. We care about you, and the people treating you care about you as well. Just imagine they are members here!