so up until now only my parents and my sister and a cousin of mine knew i had been questioning my gender and was going to therapy.
I'll start this story from the beginning.
yesterday i had a dream while i was napping that me and a girl friend of mine had kissed. I guess i sort of had feelings for her. but i really liked the dream... anyway. another friend of mine texts me later that day and asks how i am doing, i was feeling kinda wierd from the dream and as a joking comment i told her, i had a dream i went lesbians with so and so, since im not out about anything. my friend sort of laughed then confronted me and said, you gonna tell her how you feel? i said no. it was just a dream nothing more. she accepted that. the conversation evolved into confusion about myself and then i just told her. i told her i thought i was trans. and she was totally fine with it. she wants to help me and support me through it all. i told her everything and it felt fantastic to have a friend who is supportive.
our conversation kept going and then she came out to me that she is pansexual. i told her that it was great she could tell me, so great we had that sort of moment.
but the thing that got me most was that once we had gotten talking she admited to me that since I've never been in a relationship, that if through a series of events we became closer she would want to be my first. and honestly, I was really happy. or am happy. not past tense XD because she doesn't see a relationship as being sexual, and for the most part i don't really feel comfortable with that sort of thing anyway because im so confused about ti all, but to have someone that just wants to be there for you and support you along the way, that would be fantastic. so i told her that i would like to do that. and well yeah that is kinda how it broke down. I went in for some conversation and left with a possible girlfriend. how does that even happen XD
