Small things that make me happy

[Jaelithe]

So I'll be going for my first sessions in voice feminization therapy and electrolysis this week.  And I'm counting down the last two weeks until I come out to my wife.  In the meantime I thought I'd reflect on some of the things that are making me happy lately!

Walking from the hips has become natural to me, I just do it by default now.
Some of my coworkers and customers have commented on me looking/acting/sounding like a girl at times.
Wearing women's pants used to annoy me(fake pockets), but now trying to put my old jeans on and carry things in my pant pockets feels awkward and uncomfortable.
My wife has made comments over the past weeks that make me suspect she might already have figured me out and my efforts for the past months might not be in vain(here's hoping).

[suzifrommd]

Walking from the hips has become natural to me, I just do it by default now.

Can you teach me how to do this?

[Jaelithe]

Can you teach me how to do this?

I can certainly try.  It's not terribly complicated, just be aware of how you're moving when you walk.  Men typically walk 'from the shoulders', IE they let their upper body dictate the motion and the legs just move to carry them forward.  Walking from the hips is like swinging/rotating your hips, but keeping your upper body fairly still.  It comes off as something of a strut, practicing the leg over leg runway walk helps to get started.

[Robin Mack]

Congratulations... I too am in these early stages, although I am glad to say I have the full knowledge, understanding, and support of my (happilly) bisexual girlfriend.  As I'm learning the areas in my life where I've been fighting being perceived as effeminate, I've been able to target a number of areas where I can let go of social conditioning and fear.  It is truly amazing to me how removing the fear has led to appropriate gender expression.

I hope this holds true for you and others too... There are many areas where I still have a lot to learn, but apparently all my life I have been learning too... learning to "pass" as male.  Now to (as it is said in martial arts training) "empty my cup" of fear and repression and learn to live again.