Quote from: Berliegh on June 25, 2007, 04:01:50 AM
Quote from: Rhonda on June 23, 2007, 11:59:19 AM
More later honey...
I just read something that made me cry. 
My Lord, the tragedy of it all....
What does that mean. You tend to talk in riddles and quote religion. How about directness and answers to peoples questions Rhonda?
This subject is sensitive to me.
Very sensitive.
I still still keep a 12 gauge loaded with one rifled slug round in the bedroom; only one round is needed.
Last summer, I was pulling the trigger of a 9mm automatic with the muzzle placed against my temple, when a sister called me on my cell, just before the hammer released.
I suppose that it's a good thing that my reaction time has vastly improved secondary to hrt - but in another sense, perhaps it isn't.
Ya ever been at that point Berleigh?
And the general causative factors were TS and transition.
Know what I mean?
And the stuff that TS induced pressure drove; you'd be absolutely shocked if i told you the things that i have done, because of its merciless harassment and intolerability.....
i'm quite the object of astonishment and amazement with the local medical community and i'll not be explicit about it here, for it would grossly exceed forum decorum and propriety.
i know
exactly what you are talking about, dear and what
i did i would never recommend to anyone else.
its been a bitch, its been a
real bitch.
reread cindi's posts. do not make the mistake of looking at the whole picture all at once as a
whole and....being devastated by the
seeming impossibility of it all being accomplished.
i think that it's safe to state that
very few of us have the resources by which to quickly execute the process of physical correction. in forums such as this one, it's easy to come to that errant supposition; i've made that mistake before and thereby induced much unnecessary pain and agony in myself.
but what should i expect? this is a concentrated group of ts women and men and it being such, i will naturally see many successes and personal 'victories', relative to surgical correction.
what i
don't see is the oft horrendous struggles that these had to endure in the process of reaching that point, both financial and personal.
also, there are some things that i avoid like the proverbial plague, because i know from experience that they will create problems for me. generally, anything that involves GRS is avoided, for example.
i can't even look at a photo of a post-op vagina without either degenerating into bitter tears or a searing rage.
reread cindi's posts.
but then, sometimes things would happen for me transitionally and i would find myself amazed or even shocked, because
ostensibly they seemed to be impossibilities...
the recent breast augmentation for instance. one day it became possible to accomplish that correction and i was astounded.
it's a possibly fatal mistake to consider the
whole finished product all at once and then to deem it as impossible to accomplish or attain.
life doesn't work that way.
