Hi everyone,
I'm Sarah from Belgium. I'm 30y old and since recently I have these mixed feelings about being somewhere between crossdresser and transgender.
Since a few months I'm going out more and more en femme to fetish clubs. I still don't dare to go on the street or going to regular places.
After I have went out I have this feminine feeling for a few days and then I feel really feminine. In fact, when I'm in that mood I really wished I was a woman and start thinking about taking hormones.
It's quite confusing for me because I more and more have the feeling like I'm in the wrong body. Not that I have sleepless nights, want to cut of my genitals or am extremely unhappy, but It's like another side of me is outing itself.
I like it when I'm treated as a girl and it really makes me happy.
I started dressing a few years ago, I think 5, and since the last year I've made a big progression in doing make up and clothing. But in my early childhood I already liked to wear my mothers boots, leather gloves, doing make up, wearing earrings. Around teh age of 14 I already had feelings of wanting to be girl, but then they went away as puberty was coming and then there's no place for that. Maybe I suppressed those feelings.
I don't know where this all will end but some advice would be welcome.
