Just a quick note to say "Thank You" to all the marvelous trans gals and guys who have made this, to me anyway, the most informative, helpful site I've found.
I'm a 6'4", 39 year old person beginning my journey to womanhood. My story is both similar and markedly different from many here. I have always felt "wrong" as a man, always been drawn toward the feminine, but desperately afraid to let that out, for fear of rejection from my family. I briefly enjoyed the sensual aspect of dressing in women's clothes, but that soon faded, slowly being replaced with a sense of "rightness". Throughout my life I have sought out feminine experiences, learned from transgendered people, and would often cry myself to sleep desperately longing to be a woman. I thought for some time I was gender-queer or gender-fluid, but as I began to explore that portion of myself (within the last couple of years) I began to realize it was much more than that.
Finally, near 40, I have given myself permission to *be*.
I know this is nothing unusual here, but here's hoping that yet another self-realization story might help someone like me take a solid look at their life. Until I let myself realize that I was truly transgendered, I had no real long-term plan for my life. I was existing, marking the time until death. Now, along with my wonderful girlfriend (who finds me exciting and wonderful and loves me no matter what type of plumbing I have) I am embarking on a terrifying, exhilarating journey. I couldn't see myself as an old man... but I can see myself as an old woman, happy and free of what is to me the tyranny of testosterone to the end of my days.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. I hope to contribute to these forums in some small way as time goes by, and I am truly blessed to be in the presence of sisters and brothers-in-arms.
