Hello everyone, i am (planning to be) xhianil, I'm also furry, bi, and a few other things, i first started noticing the female side of me at 9 and tried to repress it, at 13 i started slipping in my life as it grew harder to do so, at 14-15 i finally relized i could be and it shattered my whole reality, plunging me into a deep depression, i still hid everything from everyone, knowing based on my life it'd only make it worse, as for the world around me at the time my mom and dad were divorced when he grew drunk and violent, at the age of 15 i no longer saw him, my mom was verbally abusive and controlling, my sister was rude and took what she want without care, she also was perfect in my moms eyes, i was bullied in school for being smart and thin, about at the end of 14 i made my first and only attempt on my own life, i ended up flinching and cutting my thumb up bad, i still suffer from this depression but am slowly getting better, right now i also suffer with knowing very little about any of this stuff.
