Hi Ladies, I'm posting this to you all because I'm curious to have your feedback. As a child I always knew something was different with the way I felt. I knew I was attracted to boys early on, and girls did nothing for me. I had a pretty normal childhood for the most part. I played baseball, was on a swim team nothing too extreme. When I was in 6th grade I met my best friend, who we eventually would transition together. We were so happy back then to be able to open up to each other about the "true us", so and all we knew at the time was that we were "gay". This was 1996, so the information wasn't really there for us to know more. We always talked about what it would be like to be a girl, because in a relationship role, we both knew that the roll we wanted to be. Submissive, more so the lady. Regardless if it was a homosexual relationship. We ended up going to a performing arts high school which being gay was so normal there we finally had the courage to"come out". I started dating a guy in a serious relationship, I was 16 he was 22 or 23. It was a healthy relationship' I was just young, and who know what they really want at that age. It lasted 2 years. At 19, I met my first trans woman through a drag performer friend. She was buying hormones from her. We'll next thing you know, so am I! It was kind of amazing, watching your body change. I started growing my hair out, and my lil boobies were growing. I started dressing on weekends going out. Now I'm 20 at this point. I met a guy out one night who liked what he saw but I was not full time. I honestly dressed for fun. We'll we ended up dating and we're together 8 years. I basically went full time when I met him. During this time I discovered silicone injections. Which thank god to this day I have not had any problems with and have had successful work done. Did laser hair removal, then the name change. I couldn't believe all this became real. I was very fortunate to have had a man there to help me learn how a man and lady act in public and help get comfortable. When we split, I was 28. I never really experienced independence as the woman I was becoming. I save some money and went to have FFS done. 2 months post op from that, I was having an orchiectomy. As soon, as I had the Orchi, my whole mind frame changed. It relaxed me. Things seemed so much clearer in my mind. It was the best thing I ever did! Now I am 20 days away from GRS in Montreal. Selfishly, I don't think I suffered the same problems most of my trans sister do. When I was living male I was ok, but becoming a woman was just easier for me to live and relax. Does anybody else feel that way? I have my problems I struggle with....who doesn't. I admire the strength many of you have. And the journeys you endure. I wish you all the best, and remember, if it is really something you want.....GO GET IT....xoxo Brooke
