Well, things are coming along nicely.
i gotta keep reminding myself its a slow process, but alas, changes list:
1. Emptionally: the first month was different, for sure, i had "shock" hrt, to trigger things and such (see other posts being IS and all, but ya). I was a newerson, for sure. Its like E hits the brain fast, amd I got wayyy calmer, and mo longer was in a shell about emotions all around. Before HRT I was an emptional mess, but ya. Very little to no moodswings, but emptions definately had the dial turned up, wayyy high. Now, everything feels just right, as it took a konth to settle into the new role as i kinda just transitioned to full time on june 20th, when i got my script. The fiances, and my, family is all there and supportive. I think that really helps with the first few monthes pf spcietal changes, and a sort of culture shock from the instant loss of male priviledge we all once had, as well as other things. A support network is amazing for a safety blanket when we feel down on some things.
2. Skin/hair: skin def softened the first month, the first month my hand constantly peeled and were dry, as well as sweating from hot flashes from things switching around. Now, I hardly sweat, it smells wayyy diff, almost more tangy? And sorry if thats tmi just thought about that lol. But most of my body feels like velvet now, and my hair takes foreverrr to grow back. Which is nice cuz now i only have to shave my legs like once a week, instead of like every other day. My arm hair used to be like chewbacca thick, and it hasnt thinned to where id like it, but its length it feminine, if that makes sence? Like. Its not a mans forearm. My nails are more brittle as well. I have to use acrylic if i want them grown out. But thats fun for me anyways, so hey, sorta win/win.
3. Body mass: So far not too much. My stomach has a super feminine shape, my butt on the back where it meets the back, is amazingly shaped. My leg muscles feel like they are still becoming more fatty, for sure. My thighs have widened a bit and now jiggle when i walk, which is, different. My ribcage dropped slightly, bit well get onto that on breast update. My ar, muscle seems to be going down sloghtly, not fast enough but i do sorta got "opera" arm now...u know the under ar, fat jiggle? Ya, that, which i want to go away too, but ill take it over muscular arms. They are still defined but not as much.
3. Breast growth: Has been pretty amazing. I am right at an a cup now? And instead of a 38 band, i fit a 36 comfortably, which, before was a painfull experiment. Heh. The puffiness/growth of nipple/areola started around week1.5 and just keeps going, but slowly. I guess a watched boob doesnt grow? The lump started small and just keeps getting bigger. It also seems that breast growth starts on the lower part of the breast first? As far as fat? Anyone else notice that?
4. Libido? Went from id say a nine to a two? Like, i dont care for sex, and (graphic): after a month of spiro, nothing down there as far as swelling? Which is amazing, in amd of itself. You have to try to get it, it doesnt on its own anymore. So no kore awkward breakfasts or randoms, which, i looove. When that started at around 17, I hated life. Now, my libido is what my mood is. And i could care less, though, the few times the fiance and me did anything, its been dry, and the orgasm? Well, now it males sence calling it an orgasm. Washes the entire body, and the shudders dont stop, for a hot minute. And no, not penetrative. See:lesbian relationship. Hell, we were like that *before* hrt. Even when i was in the army. It was like, any male role bed time was was a huge trigger for my dysphoria. And she came to see overtime, that i was better when in the zone of freeing me if that makes sense. Anyways, all that asside, hrt has been a blessing there too!
Thats about it. Other then facially, durrrr. My face seems slightly to me to be feminizing out, but everyone around us will say stuff like "wow, thats working fast", or "damn ur face is rounding out". TO me, asside from my voice, its the biggest part of hrt to me, that needs to change. And i know it is, but i still get "down" emotionally from time to time as i get ready for the day, cuz its like a man is still there looking back at me
im sure things are coming along though. But ya, this would be my three month update for anyone wishing to have a slight point to judge at.
As far as my dose? The first four monthes my e was four times the usual max, with low spiro. Now, it is down to maybe double the normal max? And my spiro is about the low end of AA now, though it worked well the previous dose. But hey the endo has his reasons, and this one specializes in IS people and is the best endo downriver in michigan for Trans*/IS hormonal balancing. He def knows his stuff. But ya, thats my three month update.
