um im kindof terrified

[karson]

so ive been hearing from people that they getn angry, anxiety, or full of angst, of that they gain wieght on t and all this other stuff, i dont want to gain a bunch of wieght, or be angry i was all amped and excited for starting T (because ii am supposed to be in 2 weeks) but now with all this negative stuff im hearing im mortified, if i start, is there a way to stop, or go back? how wil things end up if i do go back? someone please help me

[Jessica Merriman]

First thing baby is RELAX. No two people really have the same effects. I would ask your Endocrinologist these questions and see if he can put your mind at ease. Being born male and now being on HRT I can say I am much more relaxed and not constantly on guard as I was with natural "T". I can only say it is like going from a Daytona NASCAR final to a slow drive in the country. "T" made me an alpha dog always in search of an adrenaline rush and my career provided it (Paramedic/Firefighter). It seemed like I was always on guard and stressed out and muscle mass just jumped on at every opportunity. As far as anger, anxiety and angst it is just the price to pay for becoming male. I think it will even out over time, but face it, you will be going through a second puberty. It's rough, but hang in there. This is only an example of how I felt of course. I wish you the best baby brother! Any specific questions just PM me, OK? BIG HUG!! 

[Robin Mack]

Welcome to Susan's! 

Hope you don't mind a post from one of the girls... I know you're looking for answers, and while I do not have experience with *taking* T, I do know some generic info like what you are looking for.

It takes time for hormones to work.  I'm hoping that someone with more experience with T will weigh in here, but I do know that your endo will work with you and help monitor for any problems you may have.  I suggest you bring this up to them.  Given your concerns, they will probably start with a relatively low dosage.  You can discontinue if you need to, but do remember to keep your doc in the loop if you do.  Over time you and your endo can work together to find the right amount for you, your body, and your mind.

Good luck!  *hug* 

(Looks like Jessica finished her post just before I hit Post on mine... I second what she says. )

[Jessica Merriman]

Early bird Robin baby! *giggles* Like your pic by the way!! 

[LordKAT]

The likely hood that T will increase your anger or anxiety is slim to none. That refers more to body builders to take massive doses.

Muscle weighs more than fat, so you may gain some weight. You may even find yourself feeling hungrier if your younger. Just work out a bit more and you will likely see the guy you always knew yourself to be.

[Beth Andrea]

The likely hood that T will increase your anger or anxiety is slim to none. That refers more to body builders to take massive doses.

Muscle weighs more than fat, so you may gain some weight. You may even find yourself feeling hungrier if your younger. Just work out a bit more and you will likely see the guy you always knew yourself to be.

Tell that to all the teenage boys out there...and their parents. 

Karson, consider HRT to be like a second puberty...only this time, you won't change into a young female, you're changing into a young man.

During the teen years, guys have to put up with unwanted erections/arousal/horniness, sudden flashes of anger and angst, insecurities, and some other things which I've forgotten. (Hey, it was a while ago...  )

Also during the teen years, guys learn how to control these things, much of which is internal (i.e., self-control) and some is peer-driven.

But...relax. Keep thinking "this too shall pass", and enjoy the journey while you learn about yourself. Ask yourself, "what kind of man do I want to be? An angry man, a happy man, a good man...?" This is the kind of question you can't really ask others for the answer, only you can. And it might take a couple -three years to figure it out. But even then...allow room for yourself to grow, never plant your feet or mind in concrete.

Good luck, best wishes for you!

[LordKAT]

For many, T has had an actual calming effect. Only way to know is to try it.


I raised a few boys, and have been on T for a while, and read the stories of most members here. I based my answer on that.

[spacerace]

the traits of people who start T are the same as the general population - some people work out more and watch their weight, others want to or need to and are trying to do so, and some don't have to worry about it at all. I only stopped seeing weight loss/gained some weight because I chose to give in to appetite increases when I shouldn't have.

the same for anger and angst. people are people and we all have different things going on - in our lives and in our bodies.

I felt pretty centered in short order after starting T. I did have mood changes , but they were specific to my situation and can't be applied to anyone else.

there's also the fact that we expect changes and worry about them, so sometimes things may happen with weight or mood changes that are attributed to the T but really have nothing to do with it.

don't lose your excitement. people post problems but they also talk about how awesome they feel. They are them, and you are you, and you will still have control over yourself. It is normal to be scared and worry though. It is a good sign you are processing what everything about this means.

[G]

Some weight gain is going to happen with T because of how much more muscle you will have. What I think you're worried about, fat gain, that's not going to happen unless you over eat. And sometimes T does increase ones appetite but you have to make sure not to go crazy on the eating and you won't have to worry.

As for the other things, I'm not sure, I've only been on T for a month. But I honestly don't believe T is just going to make someone all of these things. It could have to do with many other things going on in that persons life. Sometimes I think people are just too quick to blame things on the T.

[Chaos]

Here is what i know

My body spent most of its time in pain and sick from the born Estrogen.It got to the point that it makes life impossible to live
Once taking T (dont ask) It started to make me feel better.I always had T anyway because,to explain-there is blankets of cysts around the ovaries and thus,blocking the estrogen.The reason i started to get sick physically and other things,is because it has blocked for SOO long (over 24 years or so).i got almost 0% E and 5% T.So with a HUGE balance issue,it has started to effect me.I wont go into everything but lets just say that the T i have taken,has created more of a balance and now i only get sick during certain times.Which normally is at a high spike when the body releases large amounts of E.(this is only physically speaking and not mentally or mood) That being said,T has done more for me on a positive level then anything else.I have not gotten sick on it,i have got more hungry but i eat right,i have seen fat turn to muscle and thus have got thinner or lost in a sense,i have got a high spike of sexual desire but i also am good at controlling it and mainly release to let go of stress,i handle things with more control then emotions (which i love),and emotionally i have calmed ALOT.Though i still have some deep personal issues to face,over all i am more comfortable and confident with who i am and my confidence has went through the roof lol which is awesome.I would say to talk to your doctore,who knows about your body-to give you an idea of what to expect.personally i feel my body was made to have T and not E and why i get sick when the E runs rampid and the T has a positive effect.Good luck and remember,fear is never founded and is always beaten with the truth/honesty.

[Arch]

Some weight gain is going to happen with T because of how much more muscle you will have.

That's not true. I gained muscle and lost a lot of fat. Overall, I now weigh less than I did. I know another guy who lost a ton of weight and a few others who lost a little despite gaining muscle.

[aleon515]

I actually have lost weight. I am MUCH more motivated for eating properly and exercise. I haven't lost that much as I have gained muscle in my shoulders, particularly. I did get hungrier on T. (OTOH on MTF friend of mine said that SHE was hungrier on estrogen-- her endo told her, "on T you get hungry to build muscle, and E you get hungry to eat chocolate".   )

I am not at all angry. I didn't get more mellow, but anger is just different. I get angry and let it go very fast. I had to learn to deal with it on T. I found therapy helpful for that. But did I suddenly just feel angry constantly and all that, not at all.

Full of angst. NOT in the slightest! However, this is a big change, and some people react by feeling this way-- it's not to T, it's that you are goign thru big changes.

--Jay