Depressed. Not trying to be remorse.

[kathyk]

A lot of the trans women and men in my group back in California had been posting messages about a woman who joined the group after I left for the summer.  This woman was a doctor who also authored an acclaimed trans-biography, and she died on Sept 30.  The girls in group took it kind of hard.  I know their feelings got to me little, but the greatest part of the depressed state came from the heart attack and death last week of a very good friend and neighbor back in California.  Plus in July another neighbor contracted a rare and highly contagious infection in the spring on her job as an RN.  She was hospitalized in a coma for two months before she passed.

So all this really got me dwelling on my past, and "thinking too much" as my wife always tells me. 
There's true sadness for the recent loss of the neighbor.  But I think these three lives disappearing made me more aware of my age, and how much I have to be grateful for in my life (the woman I am).

Here's an article about the doctor.  http://www.ebar.com/news/article.php?sec=news&article=69146

But most of all right now - Rest in peace Bill you were a truly kind friend with a giving sole.  A neighbor with a big heart and warm smile.  GO NINERS.   

[mrs izzy]

Hugs!!!

Izzy

[izzy]

hugs and sorry for your loss

[Megumi]

Sorry to hear about your losses. Losing good friends can take a lot out of you. Big hugs

[Robin Mack]

*hug*  Please accept my condolences.  I used to be afraid of joining groups, because eventually in any group someone dies, and it hurts so damned much to lose a friend. 

Conversely, new friends add to the depth and breadth of life and make a life better... and that is what I focus on, now, when people pass and the world seems dim.

Here's hoping friends step in for all of the people who knew your friends and help you through... I've read your posts enough to know you deserve the best.

[kathyk]

Thank you girls.  My wife and I just had a long talk about life and the people we know.  It's been a hard summer and fall, and JoAnn just told me her friend and former boss died of pneumonia.  Even if I only knew her from attending her daughters wedding last year with JoAnn it was kind of weird to hear about it.  We're both a little shocked by what's happening around us but we know life happens, and we need to make the best of what we have now. 

Thanks again girls.  Have to get working on the yard.  Need some positive distraction today.

[JLT1]

Thinking of you and your adventure that we commonly call life.  Remember and be glad to have known them.

Hugs,

Jen