Quote from: Kaitlin4475 on August 03, 2013, 09:06:54 PM
So last night my wife ( away for 3 weeks 
)suggested that I go shopping for make up. She gave me a budget of $150, which I subsequently surpassed to the total of $230 ouch!.. Anywho, I was at the mall which was packed and I was so shy and embarrassed that I probably walked passed Sephora (cosmetics store) like 20 times. After texting my wife for a little moral support I finally mustered up the courage to walk in. Once inside trying not to sound too awkward I choked out what I was looking for. The sales lady was so helpful and referred me to the color technician who was also super nice and helpful. I had sorta kinda knew what I needed but not really so she explained everything as well as how to apply, then started giving me a makeover. She made it fun and not awkward at all, and I looked amazing. What a difference a little makeup could do, no feelings of dysphoria, I felt calm and really just wonderful like i've actually accomplished something today. She made me feel like one of the girls. I can't wait to practice and find my look 
but wow I suggest this to everyone that has ever wished they could get a makeover professionally, do it!!! so worth it, way better than buying >-bleeped-<ty makeup at cvs or something and trying to just wing it by yourself, she broke the steps down so that I could do them myself. I don't often venture away from my comfort bubble, I'm so glad I did.
BTW.. sorry for the longass post
Awwww, Now I want to go. I have never had a make over in the mall yet! Looks like you are ahead of me, HEY! I am glad that you ventured away from your comfort bubble. I realized that the fear I had for people not accepting me was internal. Most people are understanding and if they are not, then they at least have the courtesy to not say anything. We all need to take baby steps and doing this in the Mall i would say is more than a baby step. Congrats. So many people say that I am brave but really, you are braver than me, as I would never have even considered going into the mall and getting a make over like you did.
As for how to use it, have you looked for tutorials on youtube? Do you have any girlfriends that you can ask to show you and teach you? My friends love doing make up with me. Some because they love it, and some because they are curious how someone who they see as a guy, could ever look like a woman.
A lot of us are scared, but Kaitlin. Keep your head up high, stay focused on how you feel, and be honest to those feelings. People may disapprove at first, but they will come around, and if not, they are going to miss one lovely woman. People will laugh, people will doubt, some will have a lot of denial and disbelief in their eyes, but slowly, they will see the happiness, and the woman that resides from within emerge. I'm fresh down this journey and it wasnt too long ago that I was a scared girl, afraid to tell the world that I am not the man they see. Just remember, the people who love you might take a while to transition with you, and they too must deal with this. But for those who truly love you, gender, sex, orientation will not matter. Get a group of friends who you trust, and get some layers of support. Friends, family, support group, ect.
