Need to find myself, Please Help!

[ReggaeWeirdo]

Hi peoples,
I'm guessing you people get asked for help all the time, so I would really appreciate it if you could take so time to help me. Unlike many stories I've read I don't contemplate suicide over my place in life, I just get very anxious, stressed and confused. I won't jump all in and say I'm FTM because I haven't yet experienced life as a lesbian yet(I like girls), but it's been a reoccurring thing with me. Androgyny, is something I have also thought about but whenever I wear what I want to wear (so called male clothing), I don't feel right because I have breasts. I don't like having breasts, whenever I see a boy without a t-shirt on I don't get aroused, I get EXTREMELY ENVIOUS (whether this guy is muscle city or not). I feel awkwardly happy when strangers mistake me for a boy (like the feeling inside when your crush smiles back at you or that great feeling you get on a theme park ride). There are many other things, some more personal than others, that I would like to discuss with you people but I'd like to make some friends first.

Thanks!     

[Jessica Merriman]

A big warm welcome to the family RW! It wont take you too long to see this is so very true. I suggest to everyone confused about themselves find a Therapist with gender experience to talk to and help sort their feelings out with someone who is not biased. There will of course be a lot of us who will help along the way though. Feel free to ask anything you need answers too and you will usually get several viewpoints to help you. From your post I see that you may have a form of Gender Dysphoria. If you get this diagnosis there are several treatments that could help all the way up to GRS. Anyway, here is a BIG HUG  to welcome you and make you feel right at home, so don't be shy!


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[HoneyStrums]

Well not feeling suicidle could be a result of increased awearness, eg knowing that their is people you can talk to, things you can do. Wear as before this wasn't the case and many felt completelly alone and against the entire world. Not being suicdle doesn't mean your not dysphoric. And dysphoric or not I'd still sugest talking to a doctor about how you feel and wether or not he/she can reffer you to sombody better suited about these things. Here is a good place too to come and look for answers. But remember your the judge and jurry on who you are and wether or not you do this or that. But just talking and finding informatioon doesn't have any permenant side affects :p

[LordKAT]

I don't think you need to experience life as a lesbian to decide if you are FTM, but if you feel you need to, that is fine. I love girls, but never claimed the lesbian title.

[ReggaeWeirdo]

Thanks for your replies so far people. I'm going to have to wait a while yet before I can start moving ahead with any personal matters, because I'm in a very demanding time in my life. I would like to make friends with anyone who has gone through a transition or has started to find their place in life to try and get their story, and get more views and possible answers with my own issues.

Cheers

[Jessica Merriman]

After you get 15 post's PM and I will answer anything I can about my specific journey. 

[Advi15988]

Hello RW,

I am working in a hospital and helping people.
I am working in cosmetic,plastic and reconstructive surgery department where my doctors performed several successful surgeries.
If you need any help regarding your transition you can get in touch with me.

Lots of love to you.