After contemplating my username for over an hour, I'm finally ready to make my first post.
Hello, hola, et bonjour to all you lovely people. I guess you can all call me Willow. I'm a MtF transwoman, or at least, that's where I'd like to start. The name on my birth certificate is Ryan, but I've had people call me several different feminine names, but none stuck until I thought of Willow in my head. A rather elegant, yet simple and easy to spell name.
So, my story:
I was born male into an American military family, my father still serves. Outside of the world they created for me, I had very little experiences. Learning about different religions changed things, but leave that for another time. Point is, I realised something about myself. The way I am, wasn't like the other boys. I didn't like to get rough in sports, I liked to cross my legs when I sat, and overall just be feminine. I was called "gay" and "->-bleeped-<-got" throughout school, and just told to "grow up" by my parents, and that was all they knew. About 4 years ago, I started to delve into the internet, and attempt to pass myself off as female, to see if I had the emotions down. To many, I was considered a ciswoman. And then, someone found out. Rather than chastise me for "lying," he told me about transsexuality. I never knew such a thing existed, and from then on, at least in private, I have identified myself as a transsexual woman.
Now at university, and especially so after the campus trans* organization meeting last night, I've felt like I want to kickstart myself and start transitioning. Unfortunately, the main thing blocking me is my parents. I'm afraid what they'd say or do to me, especially after hearing them talk about the transgender Miss Canada ("Boys don't belong in beauty pageants, girls do" they said) and I'm afraid to loose the money they pay for my tuition. I recieve no financial aid due to my dad being a high ranking officer and making too much money.
It seemed that I was the only person in such a position as this. Perhaps, if I find a way through it, I'll write a book or paper on it, so other trans* can learn from it.
So anyways, enough about me. I can't wait to meet you all!
