Purging?

[kathyk]

....  I'm going with more of a biker chick presentation. But passing and transitioning is a scary endeavor for me.  ...

What?  Biker chick?  --- Love it. 
My daily look is a bit of a farmer lady, mostly because of some work on the family farm every summer.

And as far as transition goes, the worst part is finding and liking the look that works for you, then perfecting and building on it. 

... I enjoy life. No depression here.  ....

I agree, you're not depressed, and it sets a nice example of how a lot of us should have started.  Keep it going girl.

[Gina_Z]

Thanks Kathy! Yeah, maybe it's because I'm tall. I need to get those biker stilletto boots and if someone gives me grief about being TS, I'll just scare them away. Ha. Unfortunately, corset training may be needed for this square frame. A girl's got to do what a girl's got to do.

[Lesley_Roberta]

I am too scottish.

Heck nooooo I paid good money for that.

I might discard something if I simply can't use it. But I am loathe to do that I usually will try to give it to someone rather than put it in the bin.

Now I am trying to purge man things from my life Oh if I could just burn the whole lot and go to Penningtons and tell the girls, I want 14 outfits from the skin out, I will be in the change room with this towel waiting for their suggestions

Purge, over my dead body.

[Gina_Z]

It is truly a tragedy when I realized those awesome shoes that actually fit, looked good, and were comfortable, are gone forever, just to feel a false sense of normalcy for a day or two.

[Megan123]

Having purged time and time again. I think the cyclic depression and anxiety has to stop. These are my clothes. My dresses, tops, bras for my boobies.
When I think of the beautiful outfits that I have tossed; from fear of rejection. If anything, purging just gave me an excuse to get more. Each time I purged, I came back the next time stronger.
It is what we do until we get tired of it and decide; to keep that dress no matter what anyone say's.

[Yukari-sensei]

Most of them were in my teens, when I wanted to just be "normal" and not get ostracized by my peers. This is the longest (1 yr)I have gone without purging; however, this is also after my longest period of self repression(7yrs).   My therapist said it was like I was stretching a rubber band and it would just keep snapping back to the original position and to stop hating who I am...

Why did I never go to therapy when I was younger?! It was so helpful!

[Lesley_Roberta]

Maybe it's an age thing.

Peer pressure means nothing to me. Maybe it's an old fart skill

I bought a top, mom told me it didn't look good on me. It sucks, but I guessed wrong on it maybe. It goes in the closet till I have boobs to make it look right.

But I spent 50 bucks on that top. The idea of getting rid of it seems so foreign to me.

I can't relate to purging much.

I have ditched stuff when it seemed like pointless junk, but never due to acceptance issues.

[Inazuma]

And Kathy, I don't feel severe mood swings or depression, probably because I am kinda androgynous. If 1 is extreme macho and 10 is extreme girlie, I'm probably a 6 or 7, so my male persona is not that far away from my inner female. Rather than a pink tutu, I'm going with more of a biker chick presentation. But passing and transitioning is a scary endeavor for me.

I also did purged maybe a few times.. but only partialy.
Since like Gina, even as a guy I do have a very androgynous style, and that is also the style I am looking forward to adopt, as full time. Maybe on Gina's scale now, a 5, looking forwaard for a 6 and 7, Biker, punk rock girl ! 

But When I did purge, it was the whole underwear, bra, nylon, etc..
I was thinking Each time, '' what was I thinking when I bought thoses things.. now I know myself ! I was such a fool !'''

well... I didn't had to wait too long to see thoses feeling coming back... wasn't such a fool at all...

I am just starting to accept fully this part of me, and the acceptation, feels much better and real than the what was going on in my Purging moments...

[chibiStephy]

well in my case.... I really didn't have reach to the point to purge, all I felt was I was tired to be TS, because of my family, my job, my studies, you named it... but then When i sat an Thing about it my main fought was " we need to keep moving ahead, go back is not a option" and that's what I did ^_^ I'm really happy now with my life, I have issues like anyone else but I feel good with my selft

[MaidofOrleans]

I purged all my male clothes. If I purge my female ones i'll be nakey!