Thanks Cindy and everyone.
Cute? Ok I have been told I was cute before in male mode, I think people are nuts
Oh well I suppose I am just conditioned to be incapable of regarding myself like that
My sister, didn't like the hair. My sister though and me are close, so she's likely just not liking the look. She probably thinks I need something else. Might be she just wants her 'brother' back too I guess. She's my kid sister though, and has made a habit of looking out for me for years since I was disabled and effectively made a financial wreck. Many a day she'd force a 20 on me and tell me I need money in my pocket to feel better. So my sister gets a lot more leeway than many likely ever will.
My older brother has not seen the look. Heck he likely won't see me till next May at my niece's wedding. I'm hoping nothing mars my going of course. I might just plain not have the cash. Mom fully expects to be going though (and her health is a higher wall to cross than my finances ever will be). I am assuming if she is going it is by way of a car ride. If she goes I go. My brother is concerned I don't do anything too outrageous to attract harmful responses. He has not been told I have elected to go the whole route seeing as OHIP will permit it.
With some luck, I will have the wig down pat and make up learned by then. I would absolutely love to go in a proper dress. Doubt I can afford a proper dress, but I likely should go in a nicer pant suit and not be too radical. Most of the family have only seen me carrying a purse and wearing a necklace at mom's 80th birthday party.
I have seen quite a few miracles around here with girls realizing their potential. Nothing improves a face like a real smile either.
I like to think I can at least look a bit better once I learn make up. I suppose it is going to be a high wall for me though. I'm not worried about what others will say with me wearing lipstick, I'm concerned about my own negative opinion. Starting to see who my son got his perfectionist anger from hehe.
Today is just a meal at mom's with wife and son. I am hoping though it goes ok.
Mom was NOT happy with how her child was treated yesterday. I explained it to the wife thusly, how would you react, if the family told YOUR son he was not welcome because of his appearance? I was a bit annoyed her response was not instantaneous too. I told her the correct response was instant motherly anger. So I warned her, my mom might not be too pleasant discussing the subject and her feelings towards wife's side of the family. I quote "narrow minded bigots and not real Christians".
I hope the only task today, is to keep mom calm
She was almost wanting to not invite the wife. I told her no, I told her expressly I was not going to make her pick and choose family over this matter. I don't hold fault with people that didn't make the choice.
Bit annoyed though, that she elected to avoid discussing the ramifications of my not being there today with her sister. She claimed the little ones were present. I told her I didn't give a damn, the little ones need to see what a little genuine fury looks like. As it now stands, the brother in law doesn't exist, nor the sisters in law and other brother in law nor their sons and daughters and their sons and daughters. There won't be any Auntie Lesley or Great Auntie Lesley coming to anything further till this is resolved with a FIRM understanding that I am not anyone's brother in law or uncle for a reason.
Either way, yesterday I needed lunch as I suddenly had nothing prepared. So I went and visited the local grocery I always go to. Was glad it was open (Canadian holiday weekend here eh). And I had no trouble going as I looked. I suspect a chuckle from the cashier next to the lane I was at might have been for me. But the woman and I have a history of banter. She's a rough, seemingly rude woman of older years that knows I don't mind the silly smack talk. Others have been 'you let her say that to you?'. Just about the entire staff though have known me for years as a regular. They all know my son as they have watched him grow from a bundle to a tree. I go in and out of the store all the time.
Looking forward to tomorrow though
first day I can walk the town with the new look and show it to my friends in person. Nothing is open currently.
My only concern, is the wig has not easy means of attachment. I'm suspecting I exceed the size tolerance level almost. Not totally sure, I know there are two small ribbons on the sides, and I almost wonder, were they meant to go under the ear? (sounds idiotic though). Or just a means to hold it while adjusting it. Thinking of attaching an elastic ribbon attached from front left temple and front right temple and tied behind back of the neck as a sort of hat strap which would be hidden under the hair.
Failing that, also pondered something not unlike this.
It seems to be a ribbon tied at the back to look at it, while in cosplay the girls are all just wearing a conventional hair comb with ribbons attached. I'd be aiming for the ribbon tied actually. Not sure how it would look on me though
Been a long dream of mine to cosplay Haruhi Suzumiya.
