just feelin kinda meh,

[dovahking]

(a bit of a rant)just moved to atlanta not too long ago attending job corps here,since i dont know anyone here i have to stay on campus,which is an all girls campus,and day after day i jus feel like im getting more and more dysphoric,almost done with the program havent started hormone treatment yet because everytime i turn my wallet gets stolen here,not to mention i cant do much under my parents insurance,they want nothing to do woth any of it at all.

im 20 by the way,but havent been able to find a non seasonal job thats why im here..its not all bad i do have friends here that adress me as me,and another ftm..well actually genderqueer to an extent friend up here to talk to,he tried convincing me to do a go fund me page,which is kinda useless, because the computers are blocked from sharing anywhere really..

i usually used to pass,back in alabama but here i jus get mistaken for being a butch lesbian,getting kicked out of restrooms more and misgendered alot,usally my height,voice sometimes,and now my face give me away,i find it funny no one even knows what trans means very much,even at pride,though i have one or two friends on campus,i dont see them much because of sga..and my boyfiend lives pretty far from me..eh.. thought id jus get that out,im usually alot happier,but the last couple of months have just been kind of rough..

[dovahking]

a bit sucky of an introduction,so sorry,

[AdamMLP]

I don't really have time to post much of a reply (yay for getting minimal sleep again), but I just wanted to say that you're not alone in your situation. A month and a half ago I moved out to an apprenticeship I have to live on site with, and I'm lumped in with the nine girls here, pretending to be female. Yeah there's a lot of guys around, but I'm not allowed in their rooms, and they're not allowed in my (female) shared room, I can't play their sports and its clear that they see me as a girl. My dysphoria's skyrocketed since being here too and not being able to pass, or get people to see past me being female bodied like they used to.

Sorry, I didn't mean to rant back at you. Is there anyway you can open a bank account to put your money in if it keeps getting stolen? At least that way it'll be harder for them to access as you can get your card cancelled. Every little helps. Some of the other American guys here might be able to help out with affordable options for getting to see someone about gender issues, I'm from the UK so it's different here.

Also, I love your username. Chin up, its only temporary in the end.

[dovahking]

its cool,and damn that mustve really sucked :<, and in a way just listening to other people makes me feel alot less lonely about my whole situation at the moment,im working on a bank account,transportation iss kinda limited because security doesnt like to take people anywhere,so i usually have to ask around,but its cool,i have atleast enough to get me a vial for two weeks,since i canceled my pay card,just waiting on another~ and thanks, total skyrim fan lol