Getting Closer and "Suspended Animation"

[Sabrina]

I am about 1 month or so away from getting my letter and subsequent HRT. I also just recently found a doctor who is willing to prescribe hormones. While he has never done it before, he is willing and will be in contact with another doctor who has. This has been a long time coming. Its kind of frightening in a way but welcoming at the same time. All I have to work on now is getting through school, finding a decent paying job, and finally moving out of my house.

I am also on a holding pattern for how much I can feminize while still at home. Family members have made comments something to the effect of "I'm not comfortable with ... (fill in the blank)". I rely on them for my living situation, so for now, I have to respect their wishes. You could say my status is "Suspended Animation".

[A]

Y'know, even if they're not comfortable with something, they have to understand that they need to become comfortable with it eventually. Of course throwing it all in their faces isn't a wise approach, but to become comfortable with something, they need to experience it, little by little.

Besides, I may be speculating a bit far, but them saying "I'm not comfortable with" rather than "don't do" or "you're disowned if you", I think, gives you some freedom in taking the lead, in a way.

[Ltl89]

Y'know, even if they're not comfortable with something, they have to understand that they need to become comfortable with it eventually. Of course throwing it all in their faces isn't a wise approach, but to become comfortable with something, they need to experience it, little by little.

Besides, I may be speculating a bit far, but them saying "I'm not comfortable with" rather than "don't do" or "you're disowned if you", I think, gives you some freedom in taking the lead, in a way.

You're right.  It's very much a balancing thing. 


Sabrina,

I can totally relate with not wanting to upset family.  Quick question, are you out or simply just feminizing yourself without them knowing why?

[Sabrina]

I am feminizing without them knowing why. I don't like doing it but my choices seem limited. I can't completely hide the fact, I tried that and was too tough to hold it in. But I'm also paranoid about telling them the whole truth all at once. I'm going for the slow approach but I guess I was going too fast and that's what freaked them out. My fear is being cast out of the house and I can't afford that. I depend on them right now. I feel like I'm damned if I do and damned if I don't.

[A]

I'm not trying to do the psychic who seems to know more than you about your own life, but I think you should reflect on how justified your fears of getting kicked out are. I have very limited information, but from the sounds of it, I don't think it'd happen.

[Sabrina]

I'll let them know when the time is right. I just got to plan things properly. I'm more worried about dad than mom. He has a tendency to over-react over the dumbest things. Thank you for the vote of confidence.