Worst

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these days i am going through the worst phase of dysphoria-i just can't take it off my mind. I am always thinking that i will never be able to make that much money which makes me question my choice of profession as it is not well-paid.
Also, today was a session on adolescence-the counselor was talking crap and at one point she said - "one boy told me that he smoked because it makes him feel manly... then she asked him-'aren't you sure?'" Everyone laughed and i'm thinking i don't need to smoke to feel manly,but no one is realizing that...  Through the whole session there was no mention of lgbtq issues. I thought of going to this counselor or one more psychologist in our school to tell them about this but i am not sure if they even know what is being trans.
Should i take a chance?

[DriftingCrow]

Yeah you should go talk to a counselor if you're having problems, they might be really helpful.

What's your profession? If you really like it, you should stick with it, there's way to pay for transitioning if you're good at saving money or you find things on the side to help you out.

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My profession choice is one i can't decide if its right-i am  afraid of death to such a level that i have decided to become a death researcher-and research isn't paid very well here. I can't live with this fear nor i can throw away the dreams of transitioning.
The counselor thing is not well understood by my parents-my mom attempted suicide (which fortunately failed) a few weeks ago and still it took about 2 weeks for my dad to be convinced enough to take her to a psychologist-just one visit as he thinks these things are of no use. Are they taught about lgbt issues in the psychology training? I am an introvert and i don't like talking much-i wonder whether i will be able to explain this clearly to her..