help confused...SERIOUSLY HELP PLEASE!!!

[charlotte dawn]

Well high,
not sure if anyone will read this if some some one whos been through this can help,
i been rossdressing on and off since i was 6 got scared on day thought me dad saw my underwear when i was 12:P,
but now im 24 since then been sucicidle a few times, very serious in life but fell lost and worthless, i dont cry i never really done the whole man thing dated heaps of females only ever dated to gurls and slept with 2 gurls, tho never enjoyed it and still dont, but now im married and have a 8 month old daughter and the other day i was going on the web and cam to m2f video and everything i seen since then and today has lost me so much, i fell its right to do but i feel  im going to hurt everyone i know, please anyone to talk to, to help to email me please.

[Cindy]

Hi Charlotte,

No need to be frightened honey.

I'm here.

I'm Cindy and I'm in Australia, I'm a trans*woman and I transitioned just a few years ago.

First, lets get rid of the panic!
Many if not most tans*woman try so hard to be a guy, we think it will cure us, it can't of course, there is nothing to cure. We are normal.

OK your situation. I would strongly suggest taking to a gender therapist and then getting your wife involved in the therapy.

She will face problems of course and you and she needs to face the situation no matter how terrible.

Your child is of course the priority and that will also impact on the relationship.

This is why you need tom get th professionals in to start talking.

Oh and hey we are here for you.

Hugs

Cindy

[Jamie D]

Charlotte, we all start confused, because we recognize the feelings of gender dysphoria and are not sure what it is.  Interact with the people here.  Get to know their experiences.  So how they are like yours.

[charlotte dawn]

Well high,
not sure if anyone will read this if some some one whos been through this can help,
i been rossdressing on and off since i was 6 got scared on day thought me dad saw my underwear when i was 12:P,
but now im 24 since then been sucicidle a few times, very serious in life but fell lost and worthless, i dont cry i never really done the whole man thing dated heaps of females only ever dated to gurls and slept with 2 gurls, tho never enjoyed it and still dont, but now im married and have a 8 month old daughter and the other day i was going on the web and cam to m2f video and everything i seen since then and today has lost me so much, i fell its right to do but i feel  im going to hurt everyone i know, please anyone to talk to, to help to email me please.

[charlotte dawn]

THANKYOU FOR A HELP.
I am not to computer literate so took me a while to figure out how to post:P thanks cindy,
Know of any trans therapist in victoria or Not??
it is hard cause i knew i was different when young i didnt like watching porn or how other guys at work spoke about wemon it really distgusted me but im just lost in the head something feels right but hurts and after viewing many peoples expiernces its just thrown me, let alone work i dont know whatto do im a butcher sooooo:( bad place to be stuck in i am...
Thankyou for your help:)

[Sammy]

Charlotte, if You are going to do something - You probably are going to hurt someone. You may not know before You talk to them. If You are going to shuffle this all back - You surely are going to hurt at least one person - Yourself. And there is no warranty this all is not going to come back and get You in 5-10 years again... In fact, it is quite possible that it will. Welcome to the club - life tends to suck at times, but in overall - it is beautiful!

[charlotte dawn]

if i would like to start hrt and do the full transition where would i start, where are these theripists in vic???

[~Kaiden]

It's okay, Charlotte!  Calm!  Calm!

I think I would be safe in saying that EVERYBODY here has been where you are before.  I was there not too long ago myself!  We're all scared when it hits, when it REALLY hits.  So don't worry, hun.  Yo're not alone!

You should check out the introductions section: https://www.susans.org/forums/index.php/board,8.0.html  You'll find lots of new people there going through the same thing you are right now!

And don't be scared!   You've found a great place with lots of supportive people!  We're here for you!

[LordKAT]

Try this list maybe.

http://therapists.psychologytoday.com/rms/prof_results.php?city=Victoria&state=BC&spec=270

[Gina Taylor]

Hi Charlotte Dawn,

Welcome to Susan's.

Here you'll find excellent information  that will get you on the right track and excellent people to talk with if you have any problems. Welcome to our family!

[~Kaiden]

Guys, this is an old thread and the OP has not been online since 1 September 2013. I seriously doubt she will come back and read those responses .

Oh, I didn't notice how old this was.  That's too bad.    I hope she comes back eventually.