Today it happened again at anonline dating site. A kid too young for me (I accept a 5 years difference maximum, no more) was getting pesky and in the end asked for my skype (Big no). And I got rather tired by that point.
"Look at my photos. Don't you think my face looks a bit manly?
If I gave you my skype you would be hearing something similar to a sailor"The kid said something Like "Sorry, I understand. Good bye and thanks for replying", but I could feel his fear. I think he's not going to log in in a few days. Sadly, this is absolutely not the first time I do it. If I progress a lot with somebody I tell them. If I get flirted a lot, I will tell it in the most sarcastic way. It's a total trigger for my self-hate, and whenever somebody keeps flirting at every post, it sounds like "I want sex" to my ears mixed with "she's ugly but I can crack this lock easily". I really hate when they flirt. An intelligent conversation could win me over so easily...
Even worse is whenever I get dirty proposals, sausage talk and things like that. Last one today wanted me be some sort of submissive slave and to get on my knees... Just after I was back from a feminist exposition. So I told them I could offer him to be my slave and suffer my manly wrath while he cried to his mom.
In real life I would never ever risk going out of the stealth or telling on my own, but online... Whenever I feel harassed the "odd couple" takes the lead again and has to show that they are there. It's the only ever moment I revert back to my previous "testis over mind" stage. It's like a way of saying
"Don't you ever try to see me as a prey. I'm still manlier than you"Before HRT I never attacked somebody online. Now every time somebody tries to get naughty on me I discharge all the contained rage and frustration. And I can guarantee my T is on the correct range... I feel like when it comes to sex, there is still a man lurking inside me
