The Early Changes - One Month HRT

[Lara the Lover and the Fighter]

So it's been a month now on Estrogen.  I have to say I really love the way I feel.  It's like on the inside everything has changed colors.  I hear people talking about seeing more color and floating and all kinds of different things.  Not me.  Internally I just feel a softer, opaque shade of blue/red/purple.  Does that make sense?? Well, that's the best way I can describe it.  Everything thought I have has a rounded edge to it instead of being jagged and rough.  Emotions are BEAUTIFUL!  The emotions that I feel now can be described as finally being able to change gears in with a manual transmission.  Reacting to other accounts, I expected to be a human rain cloud, crying at the first sight of a sappy movie.  It wasn't like that for me.  I feel the same emotions that I felt before, only now the hold a heavier weight.  This sometimes overwhelming experience causes me to tear up a bit but I don't have to run out of the room or anything like that.
Physically, I can feel myself slooooowwwwlllly changing.  My skin is softer which is awesome and although I am pretty sure I look the same, when I look into the mirror I see myself differently.  Sometimes that is a good thing because I can seem my femininity shining through and sometimes it's a bad thing since I still look like a "sir".  The hair on my head seems to be growing faster than before but the rest (legs, body, ect) seems to be staying the same.  My nipples are getting pretty sore and itchy which I think is a good sign.
Before I started, I looked for the information about what the early changes are like and couldn't find much.  Hopefully I can help someone with my experiences early on. 
Overall, I give HRT 5 stars out of 5.  Its AWESOME!!

[Ashey]

Yup, sounds about right.

-Perspective shift from male to female
-Emotional freedom
-Sense of completeness/calmness/happiness
-Skin softening
-Itchy sore nipples (achy breasts too, be prepared!)

All stuff I've experienced so far. Though I seem to be getting more of the emotional stuff, but that's probably just an individual thing. I'm a rather sensitive person, and HRT has just peeled back a lot of my defensive layers. It's a double-edged sword, because it makes me more vulnerable, but I'm also more emotionally expressive instead of just bottling things up. Well worth it in any case.

Also, are you a synesthete? Sounds like it by some of your descriptions.

[Lara the Lover and the Fighter]

Yup, sounds about right.

-Perspective shift from male to female
-Emotional freedom
-Sense of completeness/calmness/happiness
-Skin softening
-Itchy sore nipples (achy breasts too, be prepared!)

All stuff I've experienced so far. Though I seem to be getting more of the emotional stuff, but that's probably just an individual thing. I'm a rather sensitive person, and HRT has just peeled back a lot of my defensive layers. It's a double-edged sword, because it makes me more vulnerable, but I'm also more emotionally expressive instead of just bottling things up. Well worth it in any case.

Also, are you a synesthete? Sounds like it by some of your descriptions.

A synesthete?  I have no idea. 

Well, lets see... this image drives me nuts!


I don't really feel pain in my finger.  My brain just screams, "OUCH!!"  In movies when a close friend or the protagonist is hurt like in the movie "Life is Beautiful" it really bothers me to the point where I just want to watch something else.  I really wanted to play the game "Heavy Rain" but when the son went missing that was it for me.

Maybe I'm just empathetic.  Is there a test somewhere for that kind of thing?  You have peaked my curiosity!   

[Sammy]

If I am not mistaken this is about mirroring emotions . Women are better at this because of extra neuroreceptors in brain, which also explains increased emphaty . I have no idea if this is somehow related to brain wiring or HRT rewires some parts of our brains, but I used to watch horror movies and historical movies without flinching and even with some kind of interest, but now I just cant stand those sights anymore - they make me cringe almost physically and it is not a pleasant feeling...

[Lara the Lover and the Fighter]

Same here! I can't stand those movies anymore!

[Ashey]

A synesthete?  I have no idea. 
  . . .
Maybe I'm just empathetic.  Is there a test somewhere for that kind of thing?  You have peaked my curiosity!   

Well, there IS a type of synesthesia called 'mirror-touch' which is like empathy on steroids. I don't know much about it but you can probably just Google it. But what I was referring to was your use of colour in your descriptions. There are many types that associate colour to things like letters, numbers, etc. And music, smell, taste, and other things.

[Lara the Lover and the Fighter]

Well, there IS a type of synesthesia called 'mirror-touch' which is like empathy on steroids. I don't know much about it but you can probably just Google it. But what I was referring to was your use of colour in your descriptions. There are many types that associate colour to things like letters, numbers, etc. And music, smell, taste, and other things.

I just use colors and shape to describe things like that because I honestly can't think of another way. Thanks for the info, I'm gonna do some more research.  This all sounds pretty interesting.