So tomorrow is the first time I'll be with my parents since coming out to them. It'll also be my first time home, and seeing my mother, in 4 months, and I'll be there for approximately 10 days. I sent my mother an email, who believed it to be malicious and forwarded it to my dad, who immediately called me to ask if I really sent it. He seems to be at least willing to hear me out and learn. He also said to expect a call from my mother that night. That was Tuesday. She never called. I called and she didn't pick up. It seems she doesn't want to talk to me. This worries me because she's supposed to pick me up at the airport tomorrow night.
There's also the issue of clothing. I've been living as female nearly 24/7 (save a break because my uncle visited and took me to dinner, that was an hour or so) since Thursday afternoon, and plan on keeping as such until I need to leave to take the bus to the airport. I've been told by my therapy staff (none of which are transgender experts) that they've been wanting me to go to class dressed as female, but to not do so around my parents. I'm a little confused by this. I was planning on getting a second opinion from the gender therapist I was to see, but due to the fact that I woke up at 630, and next thing I knew it was 930, I missed my 9am appointment. Mom earlier stated to bring my dress clothes (which In had no idea why she sent them in the first place, I have nothing to wear them to) home to wear to church, which I am dragged off to on important religious holidays, despite the fact that I abandoned Catholicism over 6 years ago, and they know this, but refuse to accept this. I would really prefer to wear my red dress, but I don't know how that would go over. My birthday is also over break (26th) and since my parents treat it as "my day," usually I'm able to do whatever I want, which includes picking a restaurant to go to dinner for, and for the latter I'd really like to go as myself, but once again, even though it's "my day," I don't know if my parents would allow this. I don't know which, if any female clothes to bring home.
And then there's the issue of friends. I last lived in a very religious area of Florida, the majority anti-LGB, but I never heard anything about T. Lately, after changing my facebook, I've been getting a lot of flak from the more religious friends of mine, and also been getting friend requests from people I don't know, who happen to be friends of these friends. On facebook, I only friend people who are or were (due to a move or something like that) really my friends. I'm losing said real "friends" from Florida by about a dozen now, who have not approved, and "because of [their] religious beliefs, can no longer speak to me," and yet, many of these I don't want to lose as friends, as we've been good to each other for the past four years without conflict, until now.
I'm scared of what could happen, and confused on what to do to cause minimal damage to myself and others. Anyone know anything that could help?
