Okay I didn't know where to post this so I am going to post here,
I am struggling to have anyone support me how I want them to, all I get is "Oh taking hormones yourself is risky" yet the NHS think they aren't doing any harm by leaving a possibly hormone sensative cyst in my spine which they can drain and telling me to wait 6 years before HRT. I am already 20 years old and for about a year now I've had the thought in my head to self medicate however my parents want me out on the streets and nearly kicked me out in the past, I had to talk them out of it.
Everytime I mentioned self medicating they say "Oh you don't know how to take hormones and if you do you will be out on the streets." but I've researched them for 3 years so I know of safe dosage, their risk, etc. I am also not allowed to wear girls clothes around my sisters friends and everytime I attempt to go out into girls clothes I get the yelling of my life. I've looked into shelters and housing benefits but I can only claim £50, £20 of that goes towards rent and billing and the rest towards food and clothes, hormones + spiro are going to cost me £49 which is most of the benefit fee.
I thought about crashing on someones sofa but nobody will let me and I've been trying to get into a job for about a year now but can't because college is in the way. The last option was to fund
I really need help and ideas of what to do. I can't stand living like this, I've had to live by my parents since I was 4 years old it's depressing me badly.
