Still working out the clothing.
I love dresses and skirts.
Last night I had a dream I was wearing this lovely long white dress in a constantly shifting public setting but I was going to go for a hike so I had to change. I took off my dress and found I was wearing a skirt underneath. Underneath my femininity is more femininity. Haha.
After decades of perversion of my true self being made to be male, I have to learn how to be who I am, including how to dress well. I never dressed well as a man because I hated my body. So I'm even learning how to just dress myself to be life affirming and attractive.
Its difficult yet fun. I saw these light blue strap sandles on line with this really nice pattern cut into the straps with a light blue flower stitched into the straps and I got so excited. I had to have them. So while trying to figure out what fits, what looks good on me, what's functional, it's also getting excited about buying the right clothes and not getting them fast enough.
I have not come out yet. Still working that out. But pretty much every moment i can wear a dress or skirt I do so. Even when it is risky. I have become a quick change expert.
Now that it's getting cold, I have to work out my cold weather wardrobe.
It just feels so right. When I am dressed correctly, my mind tells me I am pretty. I actually say 'I love you' to my reflection instead of avoiding it in disgust.